CHAPTER 42
FIFTEEN YEARS LATER
WHAT HAPPENED TO BOTH SANDY AND MATT???
AS WELL AS
WHAT IF, THEIR PATHS WOULD CROSS EACH OVER AGAIN!
JUST WHAT IF?
Fifteen years later! I still sometimes! Just sometimes mind you, had wondered, just what if our paths would cross again? Hey! Or maybe just bump into each other, by pure accident-like! As, would I be pleased to see him? Or! Wouldn't I? Course recently, just recently, on July 2022, while I was just simply coming out of the Ladies, from the Kingfisher Centre, well who should take my breath away? By completely surprising me? By passing, at that precise moment! But him! My darling, Matt!
Yes! It was definitely him, my darling, Matt alright! Because for me how could I possibly forget what he looked-liked! Hey! As, I've really and truly loved him this long And still, till this very day! Which, for me, was so strange to see! Course, last time I really saw him properly, was as you know, over fifteen years ago, when I was still working! Yes! It was over fifteen odd years ago, that by god, had loved him as I said! Which, some would probably say, if they knew what, he was like towards me those many years ago, wouldn't be surprise in thinking, I must be mad! Yes! Mad! For thinking my god! 'how could you still feel that your in love with someone like him! Him! Who you had always said, had acted like a piece of scum-bag towards only you!
And as for thinking I should love another, and forget about Matt altogether! Well for me it doesn't work like that! As, I couldn't in a million years, switch all those special feelings that they had started, off! And say, like some complete utter morons, "well why, don't you find someone else, to love? "And try to forget about him completely, who doesn't think of you in the same way, as you do! Which, once again! Could never do that! Because of how I was brought up first! And secondly! It was basically, how those "Barstards" once again, from where I worked had really played upon my poor emotions! So, I would eventually, end up having all those special and wonderful emotions that should have truly been, if I had really had meet someone so nice! Then, rather what they all did to me! Which was allowing myself to truly fall head over heels over Matt! The only thing that all of them, didn't realise was, they had played with the wrong person! Course of how I really, truly loved Matt! As, well as, always believing that when or if I ever had these feelings that I was now feeling for Matt!
Because as I said, I could never turn those feelings that I was having for Matt, all off! Course as you gathered, I do believe, that I was really falling for Matt! But who could blame me! Because each time I was looking deeply into those big, melting, dark brown eyes of his, I felt like I was going all funny inside of myself! As, well as, also, noticing that he had such a hell of a lovely smile, that knocked me way out! That's if or when he probably had secretly had turned around to gaze at my direction! Which, was only sometimes! And whenever I had noticed him, well all that came to mind was how nice this was! Even though, I had knew Matt didn't like me! I really had loved that feeling of Matt was giving me! Which, if you didn't know already! Was just like giving me that certain look that any other guys, would do if they had liked ! But as I knew Matt! Well he didn't! But even seeing that smile of his had made me go all funny inside! But in a good way! Why! Even noticing that lovely short, but dark, spiky, hair that he had, course, that to did I loved about him!
Anyway, getting back to when I saw Matt, walking past those ladies toilets, at that precise moment! And on that day! Because even though, he took me by complete surprise, which he had! Because of realising to myself that how I still missed him so much through all those years, since Matt had decided to leave our work in the year 2007! Which, I didn't really want him to go! Concerning of how I was feeling for him! And boy! Was I! Because if you must know he not only broken my heart big time! But he had made me feel like I had a huge, great, big gap where my heart is! Honestly he had! So that showed of how I loved him! Course, this girl just couldn't stop being in love with him! Even though, I had knew full well that he there isn't any way, I could have cared for what he had done to me way back then, whilst he joined in with those utterly, other "Barstards" from where I worked at! Which they had truly hurt my feelings, before and after leaving our work! As, well as knowing deep down he couldn't care less, of knowing how I was probably feeling for him!
Course, basically, how he left me, shortly after he left, was that I cried! And cried I did over and over, over him for two and a half years! And that's no mistake! As, did this girl cry that long while he weren't working around Redditch no more! Even when I had noticed him just walking around the Kingfisher Centre with either, one of his mates or his miserable mummy! Yes! That's right! It was even when I had spotted him walking around with his mother, that I could still unfortunately to this day had remembered! Course of having an one of those hairdo like some had in the eighties! Which, I think was in the year, 1989! Yes! That sure was! The first time I had clapped eyes on Matts mum! But holding hands with this very cute, little boy! A little boy that was probably about the age of three years, old then! I think!
Because of how I remembered, while I was still working where I had been, that Matt had told us, he was born in 1986! "June the 26th," exact! Course, of having a good memory! As, well as, I thinking, 'wow! Matts Birthday was only two days after my dads Birthday! Which as you know falls on, June the 24th! "Midsummers day! But getting straight back to when I had saw this cute little boy back in 1989! Well he had dark brown spiky hair! Not forgetting, that while I was still in that shop, little Mattie, which I'm sure it was! Had really given me such a direct look! Which, anyone should know! Looking directly straight at me with those extremely biggest brown eyes! As, well as, giving me one hell of a lovely smile, you would not believe, for a little toddler! And this was while I was getting more and more closer to them! Though, would you believe, even then! Then, when Matt was a little toddler, that I had ended up running straight out of the shop! Because of seeing him giving me such a hypnotic look, directly at me with a smile! As, well as knowing he would have made my face gone bright red!
As, this old shop was called, "Stead and Simson's! Which, back then, was slightly opposite to Freedom Hardy's & Willies! But what I would say was, "Freedom Hardy's" & bloody "Willies" as being me of course! Which to this day is now, a small dreary, dark Costas shop, that's next to Primark! And directly opposite to JDs Sports! Which, back then, was called, "Burger King! But while I was still in "Stead & Simpsons" well as I was just minding my own business and before, noticing Matts very miserable mother, once again! Who really did have such a weird hair style like most women and guys, had, had back in the eighties! And who couldn't help myself of reminding me of either, a blooming huge Jellyfish! A Great, big giant Squid! Or! Or one hell, of a huge, enormous Octopus that was glued upon her big head! Because most styles back then, was like a big buff! A buff that was on top of their heads with some of their hair, dangly down at their back! And I'm not joking! They were sure like that then! But thank god! Thank god! That my hair was not at all like that! Course, even thought, my hair was slightly long, to my shoulders, I back then, had decided to have a perm!
And so! Getting back to whenever I had only saw him then, course, did my emotions wanted to fill up with what had appeared to be tears! Tears, that had wanted to slowly run down from my cheek! As, well as, I couldn't stick around, because of really, these emotions that I now, had for him had got to the better of me! And as I say, had got to the better of me! Which, what I meant, was! Those tears of mine, had really couldn't hold back from seeing Matt of walking around the Centre! Which, made this girl leave the Kingfisher Centre, immediately! And I do mean, I had to quickly leave the Centre! Course, the more I just thought of seeing Matt, right there and then, the more I started to cry all over again! Like when he left our work! But more so! Because by the time I got back home I had to hid myself in the front-room and curved up in a ball! Course by now, my tears were streaming down from my face! Until, there was no more tears left! So, in other words! I eventually ended up crying myself to sleep!
So, again, when I saw him and saw him I did! Because of how I could never in a million, forget Matt! No way! Even though, now he's looking much older, I could never forget about him! Which must meant, my feelings that I had for him, could never go! Course, since the years had gone by for me since 2007, well my feelings for Matt had grown more and more stronger! Then, rather like some of those horribly, but nasty evil "Barstards" that once I worked with had thought, it would go! So, in plain English! My feelings for Matt was so much deeper then anyone would have possible thought! Even though, after seeing him as I did, before wondering into H&M a "clothes shop" had told myself, how I couldn't still help myself but look back at him! As if it was like old times, once again!
Because while I noticed him! And noticed him I did! Walking further and further away by now, carrying a black lap-top over his shoulder and wearing a black T-Shirt! Well for a split second! Just a split second, I had wondered to myself, 'fucking hell, Matt! What the hell have you done to yourself? Because boy! What I could see from Matt now was, the guy had less hair and gained so much weight! As, I wouldn't picture him as slightly broad now! I mean, by god! Did he now, seemed to have lost all that so-call-nice looks that yes! had really once thought, he had! But just by looking at him now, well no way! So, really all I could basically do now, was just remember him as he once looked-like! Which was dreaming of him looking slightly board! Had more hair that he definitely had now! Which, showed his gorgeous, but more dark short yet, spiky hair, that I must admit had also, truly liked about him! Oh yes! Did I really liked him, as he once looked! Truly I did!
But now! Well, what does anyone take me for! Hey! Just because I will always love Matt! Doesn't mean, to say, the way he's turned out now had really meant, I've got to like him as he is now! Course, by god! If you wanna know my opinion about how Matt as turned out now, is I think Karma as gone back to him, for what he did those many years, to me! I mean, first of all, joining in with those other Barstards that worked where I had! And secondly! Secondly, of how he must have thought, it would be funny to tease me! And playing with my emotions, so I wouldn't know what or where I was going! The only thing is! For people saying, I've got to try and forget about him and move on! And try to meet someone else! Well what they don't know is, it's not that simple! Because the way I've been brought up is that, once I thought I would possibly fall in love with someone! Could never truly forget about them! No matter, how they've turned out now!
As, well as, saying, I would love to meet another guy! Or another! Like some would say, but there's plenty out there, that you could possibly love! Which, in other words, what I'm trying to say is, true love don't work like that! So, if there were anyone were to think like that! Well, let me tell you all! I'm sure not like those other pathetic, stupid, mindless girls that everyone sees around Town nowadays! Course, if anyone out there, does actually believe that I were like them! Well they are very much mistaken, in thinking that about me! That who at first! Could possibly think I would want to end up with someone who had possibly kept breaking up with other girls! And who then, decided, to find someone else, while they may have had a load of baggage's with their previous partner! Because if that's the case! Well it would only show that they've got a tiny, but brainless minds that they would think that about myself! Because for what those Barstards had done, while I was still working where I had, those many years ago, can't ever now, believe that there's always, someone out there, for myself! Like I had once possibly did!
Because maybe! Just maybe, if they didn't play with my deepest feelings, towards Matt! Who I truly wanted to be only a friend! Not who I would wanted to end up falling madly and passionately in love with him! Which, was really loving someone, as I never had before! But oh no! They just wouldn't leave me alone! As, the only reason of why, I had started to like Matt, was when he had first started, well he was he only people that had given my smile back! Because of just seeing that smile of his! Because at first sight! You would not believe, he truly had put a huge, big, enormous smile upon my face whenever I had saw him around! And would you wanna know of why? Well what I had thought, back then, was before Matt had started, well I had asked Deek, our Manager, "why, don't you hire someone! "And someone for me! That was not only, slightly tall! "But who could possibly have nice eyes with a lovely smile! Plus! "Who as got to be slightly broad! "Not fat! "But who as to be really slightly broad! "With a wacky personality, like myself?
Which, just before I came wondering into work, one day I heard a voice! A voice that even though, may be quiet! I heard alright, coming from inside my work! They said, "she's coming! Which, I've got to tell you, had didn't know who they were talking about! And why! You may ask! But boy! I can tell you this! As, I slowly had came walking in, I first noticed Deek at the till, showing some girl the ways to do things! Then, as I slowly passed them, a little further, all that I could see with my big blue eyes was this guy! A guy, that was leaning himself on one of our big tables, looking slightly down to the floor! And who I thought, had looked shy! And because of that! I just couldn't pluck up the courage to say, "hello, to him! Course, as he looked absolutely gorgeous! Why! I even felt, I could have tripped, because I wasn't even looking where I was going! While I had noticed this "god-dam-it" guy, that truly had caught my eye! Thought, did Deek actually got my wish answered! I mean, I did ask him to hire someone that was not only tall! With a extremely lovely eyes! But who really wanted them, to have a really nice smile! Not forgetting, though, that they must have a wacky sense of humour and who's slightly broad!
Which even though, this guy when I first saw him was leaning against this table, did have a pretty good imagination, that was he or wasn't he nice? Course, of the way I was looking, had thought, he was! But who later on, was I so wrong in thinking that! Because, of the way, he truly acted towards me! Which, I truly didn't understand of why, he had to be like this towards me! Because, like I said, this guy, was the only person! "Only, person," that had brought a huge, big smile upon face again, since my own Manager had to leave! Which, I had thought, was nice! But, once again, was I so wrong in thinking that this guy was nice! And Why? You may ask! Well, while he was around those other idiots that worked there, had eventually, started to act like a utter "Barstard! Which was a shame! Really! It was! I mean, to think when I first saw him-like, had truly thought, he was! As, well as wanted to be a friend! Then, instead, who acted like a complete utter prick! Because of joining in with all those others from work! Even though, half of the time he tried to act nice! He was mostly horrible and nasty!
But why! As, I thought, because ever since Matt and that best "Matie" who was that tall, hideous, but lanky girl, who's nose had looked-like a toffee- nose snob! Which, by god! She was! Because of the way, she really had thought, she was "Miss goody-two shoes when she had worked there, along with Matt! Who was always trying to be a bully towards me, while he was with her! That Bitch! But saying all that about her! Had made me also, think why, she could even possibly be a evil version of our lovely Pinocchio, that was a puppet! So, once again, I thought, 'why did he have to be nasty and curl? And to towards only to myself! Because if the way, he acted-like! Showed that he must have known what he was doing to me! But even though, I will always love Matt! And only Matt! Course, I'm just not like anyone that had always gone around with different guys!
***But saying that I will always love him! Well come on! After seeing him as he is now! With his hair that was so horribly cropped! As, well as, he may have dyed his lovely dark brown hair into black! As, given me seconds thoughts about him! Because first of all! It was actually, the way Matt had treated me half of the time back then! And secondly! If Matt had truly dyed his hair, that once was dark brown, would given me thoughts! Thoughts of him still nasty! Or should I really say, the way he was towards me back then, as in one minute, trying to be nice! But who then, turned nasty! Well wouldn't be surprised really he's a evil demon, but in disguised themselves, as anyone of us! That really would never come out! Or reappear!
Then, really instead, of imagining as he truly once was! That made slightly board! Well now! He makes me think he looks as fat as a pig, with a pop-belly showing! Not forgetting, how I would definitely not wanna know anyone like how Matt was towards me! Which was making me first, think he was giving me an evil eye! As, well as, who given me such a horrible, but moody look! Like he was either, angry or annoyed with me! Either way, I certainly wouldn't wanna anyone like that!
Because I've always, loved to have gone for a guy, "that's if I could have meet someone" to fall in love, which as anyone should truly know me by now! I can't! Course I will always love Matt! Even though, how he's turned out! It's still Matt, at the end of the day! I'm still very much in love with him! But like I said! If I could of! That was! Then, I would have loved to meet someone, who's not only tall! But who's got extremely lovely big eyes that could probably hypnotise me like how Matt had, with his! Plus, they must have a really nice smile! And a wacky sense of humour like myself! And who looks slightly board then, so fat! Not forgetting, though, who as to be very single without any baggage's that's attached to them! Weather they're small or grown-up! Course, I truly wouldn't wanna know anyone that does have kids!
So, knowing guys! Any guys, such as Matt is now! Well come on! Having three horribly sex-objects or should I put that bluntly, his Scabs! That, that so-call "fat trollop" that he could still be with today, who knows! Had truly played a very dirty game, because they didn't want him to have a life of his own! Or maybe, even having a mind of his own, if they had parted again, like always! So, how fucking pathetic was that to do, even though it was to him!
***But it was how Matt had acted towards me, that I probably wouldn't wanna know! Which was most of the time, acted like a showiness-pig! Like as if he so loved himself because of always going around with different blonde girls! But who at the same time, was showing signs, that he was like a pompous-ass-hole! In other words, acting like a right big headed git! With his huge, but big conk, raising up so high, like as if he were a total big headed Snob! Plus, who could never forget, if he had saw me by pure accident, had looked really angry! While his nose was sticking up in the the air again!
But as for myself! Well if someone would really wanted to act like that, well they must know where they can go! Well, like Matt had said to me half of the time at work! "Fuck off! As, I've always like guys, who would definitely gone for their eyes and smile! As, well as, they have to be slightly Board! Then, rather knowing anyone so fat! Who as hardly any hair, what so ever! Or to put it bluntly! Any guys, such as Matt! Who had a hideous, horribly cropped hair! Which I had thought to myself back then and there, course he as grown a little older by now, maybe he just didn't wanna look after himself! As, I once pictured him as! Course, I actually, did thought to myself way back then, that Matt was one hell of a looker! And boy! Did I truly thought that! Because to me! I had really thought, in my mind he had looked slightly broad! Though, it was just gazing into those big, deepest, darkest, mesmerising brown eyes, that always, did it to me! Plus, just seeing that lovely sexy smile of his! And yes! That was what I really thought, of his smile, if he had smiled to me!
But I tell you what else, I sure dislike in guys! And that is! If any guys, were to have a beard! Yes! That's right! A hideous, horrible beard while being so fucking fat like how Matt looks-like today! Which, for me, was a shame! As, I still do imagine what Matt had truly looked-like, way back when I knew him! And why! Well it's course, of the the times that Matt had made me feel all gooey inside! Because once again, the way he had given me such a lovely look! A look with his gorgeous, sexy, hypnotic brown eyes and what looked-like a nice smile! Only, I'm sadly to say, he rarely did that! Because, of moaning and giving me, what looked a moody look! As, I've always, loved a guy, if they had existed, that is! Very single like myself! Plus! If they were slightly shy, like myself! Which, only ever happened whenever I had saw Matt those many years ago! Because sometimes I really thought, that's what Matt was like!
***Anyway, even though, of how I truly loved looking at Matt way back then! Well I always, allowed myself to feel like I had gone all tingly inside of myself! As, if I was trying to say, "he had always, made me felt like I had butterflies in my stomach! And as for my knees! Well whenever I always, clapped eyes on him! Well he would always make me feel that my knees would even start to tremble a little! Why! Even my dreams! My dreams, that I was having of him! And boy! Did I mostly always, having a dream of Matt gazing upon my direction, with those beautifully, deep big dark brown eyes of his! Still felt like burning at the back of my neck! Because of how he had made my tiny little hairs stand on end, when I carried on looking more so, into those lovely deep brown eyes of his! Like as if I truly, truly wanted to look at him! And look at him in the shop where we had worked at!
Though, saying that! If I did know he was really looking straight back at me, well most of the time I just couldn't look at him! Because it was like I was going all shy in myself! Which, I knew each time I would! Honesty! I would! As, it was due to that, that had got me thinking, I was starting to love him big time! But as I had a pretty good imagination of whenever I dreamt of him also, of looking at me with such amazing big, dark, but melting brown eyes, well you would not believe! Did at times, wonder 'do you like me then, Matt! Course, of always, managing to send this girl on either, coo-coo land! Or to put it bluntly, on cloud nine! Because they were the most adorable big brown eyes to me! And as for his smile! Well that was more like a bonus! Because it wasn't often that I had noticed my "darling" Matt smiling directly at me! Then, rather messing around with those utterly horribly "Barstards" that had also, worked along side us! Course, like I said, he really had such amazing big brown eyes! Plus, his smile! That's if he could have smiled more by looking at me at the same time though! But he hardly did!
Which once again, had proved my point! Matt didn't like me at all! But getting back to when I just sometimes! Just sometimes had saw him around now, because even though, he still in some way, had made this girl feel like she was going all tingly inside of herself! Like as if I had still had butterflies in my stomach! And her knees had started to tremble at the same time, like jelly! Like how I remembered how Matt had made me feel when he was always around me then! Or that I was gazing into those big adorable brown eyes of his! As for that short, but spiky brown hair, that he once had! Well what I saw now, was no more! And do mean, his hair was no more like how it was! Which was really nice seeing! Short but spiky hair! Then, one hell of a horribly cropped hair! Yes! That's right! Matt had now had hair that was so horribly cropped! Like as if he wanted to take the piss of a poor defenceless hedgehog!
And I say a "Poor hedgehogs! Course, they were the only sweet little animals, that had really wanted to slowly pop out from out of nowhere at times! Just like how Matt had once, those many years ago, when he used to work at the same place, I had! And which certain times had sure surprised me! Which I hate to admit it! Had liked noticing! But as that was then! Well what I'm talking about is, how Matt had looked-like right now! Really! Because as I said, what I saw, was one hell, of a short, but "mangy, looking hair! Then, instead of that lovely spiky hair that he once had! Why! Even by looking at the way Matts hair was, had even reminded this girl of one of those very hideous, old, but "ugly Cabbage Patch dolls," that some people had back in the eighties! Yes! That's right! Those very hideous, but ugly dolls! Course, of their faces, as well as, that awful woolly hair that they had! So, as I kept looking at Matt, couldn't help myself of wondering what had made him wanna make himself look like those "hideous Cabbage Patch dolls! Because he certainly had lost all his remarkably nice, look! Which I was referring to his short, but spiky hair, that he once had, those many years! As, well as seeing him looking slightly broad! Then, rather what I saw him as now!
* Course, it seemed Matt had looked as if he had put himself right down as he got older and older! Because what I saw, I couldn't say, he had looked slightly board in my eyes anymore! But rather fat! Course of looking like he had gained a lot of weight, on his body! And being the way I am! With a funny sense of humour like my dad had! Wouldn't be at all surprise, to say, that Matt could even fit into that very old Blobbys costume, that had always, appeared on that funny show of Noel Edmonds House Party those many years ago! Though, saying all this had showed that I wouldn't wanna see him in front of my face, because as he is today like! And that certainly included if he had grown a beard by now! And tinted his short, mangy, yet looking cropped hair that may have grown a little by now! Still wouldn't wanna know or see him around me!
Because once again, I really don't dig or go for any guys, such as Matt as now probably turned out! Which, is fat with who knows with or without a beard! And who as black hair! Not forgetting, though, who as always seemed to have their heads up high! Like they really wanted to act like one of those other fucking "Snobs," around! Which you would always noticed their large, enormous, huge, fat conks stick up! As if they wanted to act like a total big-head!
***So, yes! I would still say, sadly, I would want Matt as he's probably now turned out to cover that huge, fat, enormous body of his! So, I wouldn't have to see that I was right! Right, in thinking he as tinted his hair black! Not to mention, if he had a beard on his fat face! The only stupid thing is! I really can't ever forget him! Course, of wanting to remember him of how he really had looked-like, those many years ago! Which, was imaging, he was slightly board! With that lovely short, but spiky dark brown hair! And who could not forget, that lovely smile with that deepest, dark, melting big brown eyes of his!
So, sorry! But no way! No way! And no thanks! Would I want to know anyone like him! Especially, who's got, those "sex-objects" from that huge, fat trollop! But there again! Those three "Scabs" that, his fat trollop did have from Matt! Because I only say this course, while they were both-like all those years ago! Like hanging around in this none-existed relationship half of the time!
***Well that fat trollop! Which, of course she was to the lot of us had decided to play such a dirty game to tie Matt down so that maybe he won't ever be able to enjoy himself ever again! Which, was having those three, filthy sex-object!
Which they truly were! Because of the way they both had kept going on and off with that relationship! And which everyone knew he really doesn't know what he wanted! As, he was always hanging or going around with other blonde girls at the same time! As, for myself! Well really! I don't like any guys, that first was like him, not to mention, who married with any kids what so ever! As, what do they take me for!
Anyway, getting back to how Matt may look right now! Course what I would suggest is to put any bloody big enormous costume over that really fat body of his! So everyone! And I do mean, everyone, but who really I was only talking of myself, wouldn't see that horrendous look of him! I mean, who's fat! Dyed his hair black! And who's not a nice person to me! Why! Who knows! He may have grown a beard, which is even worst in my book! Course if he as! Then, bloody hell man! I sure would definitely say to that fat guy, "put a costume over yourself, course of looking a gruesome, hairy creature, like a "Werewolf! Which, once again, that is if he had grown a beard now! "A Werewolf!
**Course, first of all! I would never in a million liked guys with beards and who's got black hair! As, I've always liked guys, now, with dark brown hair! Not Blondes! Nor Black! But dark brown! Maybe, it was as if I was still very much dreaming about Matt, as he once was though! Which, was slightly broad! And who I had thought, was one hell of a looker! Because as Matt was the only one back then, that sure made me go all shy and bashful whenever I looked deep into those magical big brown eyes of his! And as, well as, at times, he had looked at my direction! Then, rather now, looking-like one huge, fat fucker! Who when I do see him around now, had sometimes stick their big, enormous "Cong" right up in the air like a snob! Which, I hate! Plus! Who's looking rather angrily while they may know they spotted me! Which, is fine! Course, I sure don't wanna know anyone like him if they are like that!
Really Fat! With black hair and who's still got that a personality he had, like he probably wanted to turn into a Werewolf! Because they don't care half of the time of what or who they hurt! Like myself! So, I wouldn't be at all surprised now, that he probably wanted to be so fat! Course, who knows, he may want to be the same size as his "fat trollop" that he had kept going around with! That's if he was still with that ugly fat trollop! That way back then, was always wanting to be together, even though, it was an on off relationship, for only pure sex! Then, may have wanting to be together-like a real and proper relationship! Course as she had felt she had better play a dirty game on him by tiring him down! So, he won't make chooses for himself! Like how he may wanted to enjoy his own life before really thinking he wanted to start getting tied down with someone that he could truly love! Then, just thinking about having sex! Sex! And more sex for fun like! Course, if he didn't known this! Everyone had really known this was an on and off relationship then, what others might called a proper relationship!
*****And as for their so-sex objects right now! Well all four! As, in they've got three sons, that's all grown up! Plus! A daughter! That I wouldn't even be so surprised, she had turned out to be a gruesome, hideous, "Medusa! And why! Well come on! If anything from both of them, but that huge, fat trollop had, had must have become really Evil-like! Which, if I'm not mistaken! Only, after seeing a vile-looking young lad, that at times, had hanged around the Kingfisher Centre in Redditch, had some reason, not only made me think it could have been Matts and that fat trollops middle sex-object! As in their son! Because of the way, they have grown up and had looked!
*****But having Black hair and a small tosh had really made me thought! Why! He could even look-like that evil "Adolf Hitler descendant! Because of their looks! Which, we certainly don't need to see around here! Or know of! And why! You may say! Well it's because of knowing in the nineteen-forties, as anyone should know, already had an evil "Nazi Gestapo," such as Hitler! Who killed so many Jews, that suffered in those camps! So, once again! We sure wouldn't wanna know that there was truly now, such an evil-looking, "trash" as Hitler once was!
*****As, well as, knowing Matt wasn't at all a really a nice guy! But who was one hell of a nasty piece of shite! And that's no mistake! So, what I would say is, if someone would ask me is, knowing it's their middle younger Scabby son! Who really though, hasn't turned out to look-like either, of that horrible, evil father! And that fat trollop! But more so, like Adolf Hitler! Well, my answer would actually be, "get shot of that piece of Trash! For instance, if the Gas Chamber had still been existed! Then, put them into it!
Though, as for Matt! Well after seeing Matt with that very badly cropped hair, that could have even looked-like a huge rusty old lawnmower had been rolling over and over his huge, big fat head now! Then, rather how he once upon time looked! But who I just still couldn't help watching him, from the distance I saw him! Because of being stupid, as I am! Still is very much in love with them! But that's all it is! Love! Even though, it's Real True love! It's still only love! Not someone that says, "oh! "I want ya, Matt! Really! I do! I want ya! Because for one! It's how he's turned out! And secondly! Secondly! It's because I'm not one, like how that fucking fat trollop of his had wanted to play a dirty game so poor Matt won't lead his own life! As, I'm someone that would still say, leave them to go their own way! Weather they want to be sucked in by a fat trollop like her that didn't want him to enjoy his life first!
***As, I just love dreaming about him, like how I had years ago! Simply saying "oh Matt, "how I love you! Or to think! 'I sure would want to be with someone like you! But who was so very nice and shy! Not to mention, who could have been single without having baggage's! In his case, who's now got three sex-objects that could even be describe as real, proper, "Scabs! Because of how that fat trollop that he always kept going around with years ago! Course of how it was an on and then off relationship! Who should I say, had both mocked of how true relationships should be!
But who sadly for me now! Can't ever dream of meeting her so-call dream-guy, if he had ever existed that is! Because for one! Those old dreams had been shattered! As, in I can't ever think it could happen to me! And secondly! It's because I'm already now in love! But unfortunately, with love Matt! But why! Oh why! Did all of them, from where I had worked really wanna shatter my dreams, that I once had! Of wishing, what if some day! Just some day, I would meet someone so nice and shy that would show me they like me a lot! As, in falling in Love with me! But, oh no! As, once again, who I can't ever imagine happen to me! Because, of what they all did back then! Which, was playing with my emotions, so I truly first get so confused to how I was starting to feel over Matt! Which, as you should know, ending up falling for him!
***Though, after seeing him with that so-call hideous, cropped hair! And who had gained so much weight! Like he truly wanted to be so fat then, rather being as he once was! Which, I saw him as slightly board! But which now was a shame to see! Because how first, he had also reminded me of a poor defenceless hedgehog! A hedgehog, that's lost all it's prickly spikes! But who was so fat! As, I thought, what the hell happened to you Matt! Because of remembering how Matt had once looked! So, when I saw him passing as I had! Well brother! I wondered to myself, if only I could have had the bottle to go right up to you and tell ya, "hey! "Matt! "Why, don't you grow that hair, of yours back! As, well as probably mentioning, "what the hell happened to you?
Even though, to say, way back then, of how Matt acted towards me, had actually made this girl feel like she was mostly invisible! Yes! That's right! Invisible! Like I didn't existed to him! So, after I saw him going past now, had noticed he had a Tattoo on one of his arms! Yes! "A Tattoo! That had somewhat, made yours truly thought of pigs! Pigs! That had been branded with a mark on their huge, fat, enormous bodies! And that's no mistake! He really did! But what had surprised me even more was how I didn't tilt my head like how I used to! No-sir-re! Course, it was the way he had looked like now! Yes! Now! With that hair of his! Short! But what had a horribly cropped hair! That really how I mentioned, was so like a poor hedgehog! But who knows, could have been a deformed one!
Though, who really now, had looked-like he as turned his huge, big conk right up in the air to me! Like as if he noticed me! But who now wanted to act like a right big-headed stuck old snob! Then, how I once dreamt him of! Which, was thinking he was such a nice, but shy person! Who possibly could have really liked me! Course, if you must know that's what I like in a guy, if they existed! But being like more like my dad was, who had came from Sunderland County Durham! Matt really did have such a hideous, but short cropped hair! Which even had made me thought it could have been driven over and over by a very old rusty lawnmower like I said! Looking awfully short! But so mangled up on top of his huge, big head, then, rather how he once looked! Short! But spiky hair, that sometimes looked-like it was swept to one side!
Well "Mugging's" here! Meaning myself of course, had always, still wondered how Matt hadn't liked her in the past! Which, I still couldn't help myself for still being in love with him, in my heart of hearts! Because of being an old fashion romantic, as I am! As, well as, who had always dreamt as a young girl if I had those love feelings over someone! Course, if so! Then, that would be for entirety! Then, who would now, keep changing their bloody minds, from one minute, to the other, of wanting to stay with the guy! And who would then leave them! For instance, that's how Matts big, enormous, humongous, fat-trollop had always treated my him! As, if Matt was a flaming idiot! Course of how he couldn't plainly see, what was happening, in front of his gorgeous, melting, mesmerising eyes! Yet, saying that! It does take two!
Even though, I hate to say that! It does! It does takes two for any relationship to work! Which, I was referring to that stupid Matt that had actually thought, about his enormous, fat trollop! Who everyone knew once again, was simply not in a real, proper relationship! But just for going around then, if they both wanted to have fucking sex and more sex! Because one minute! Just one minute, we would all see Matt and her, that "fat, enormous and miserable, Bimbo-like had been going around Town! Then, the next! We wouldn't see them together! Well like I said, this was so much Matts fault as well! Being like any other guys! With a pea in his huge fat brain! And who didn't wanna control his bodily functions, below, if or even if not, he wasn't with that fat trollop! So, anyway, like I said, it takes two! Not the one, for a relationship to work!
*** Even though, what that humongous, "fat Creature" from the Black Lagoon aka his fat trollop had always, treated Matt, while she was occasionally with him or not! It was more his fault to! And even though, he was like this! Well I did actually find Matt was a knock-out! Yes! That's right! I aka Sandy Dazley had always thought, Matt was definitely a knock-out! But, that was only course of every time of trying to gaze into those big, dark, melting eyes of his, that I would always start to feel like my knees would start to tremble! And I do mean, tremble a little! Plus! For who I had always felt butterflies in my stomach at the same time!
But, after seeing him now, after all those years, still couldn't help but wonder to myself, 'oh boy! 'Matt, even though, I love you! 'Well just look at yourself now! 'Really! Just look at yourself! Because by noticing him from that far distance on that day, Matt just didn't seemed to do anything for me! Expect for a little surprise, when I saw him passing by like he had! As, he had always, used to somehow bring that shyness out of me, by gazing deep into those amazing, big brown eyes! Couldn't say, once again, that he had made me feel like how I saw him! Which was a shame! Course, my god! Just by looking how his hair was, all horribly cropped! Plus, knowing now, I just really wouldn't like guys, that did have such an hideous hair cut like Matt had now! No fucking way, man! As, well as, knowing who was now tied down with baggage's! Yes! That's right! "Baggage's" that was in the past, knew full well, Matt and his enormous, fat-trollop has now have! Course, of always, kept on going back and forth, as in on and then off with their un-strange relationship that most of us had said!
******That was more like and who knows probably still does! Weather they are still with each other! Like two, old mad Rabbits, humping away, but who, after a short while, decided to jump back off from each other again! Course, who knows! They may have been fed up with each other! Until, that is! Those two very old Rabbits, had decided to meet up, with each other yet again, to hump some more! But in reality! Well who knew of why, those two mangley, bitter, twisted pair of revolting sicko, had always ended up parting all over again and again! Unit, maybe, that is the next time, when unfortunately, for us, had saw them both, hanging around together again!
*Which, I hate to say! But for whom, I was sadly referring to my darling, Matt! Yes! Matt! But only while he was with his extremely, enormous, fat trollop! Who yes! Was, and still is quite enormous! Like that big fat trollop could blow-up, at anytime, like a time bomb! And boy! Do I mean, at any minute, she could have blow-up! But for whom, the delusional Matt, had always kept on saying out, while acting like a most big-headed git, as he certainly was! Or a Prick! Because of times, he just couldn't help himself by shouting out so loudly, "oh, how I love blondes! "But pretty ones!
Which, if that's the case! What flaming happened! Because, what I would say now was, "Matt much have been as blind as a bloody wrinkly, skinny, but very loud old bat! That certainly needed a guide dog, if he really thought that his Miss fat trollop was oh, so fuckin' pretty! Or even saying like a cucumber! As a joke! Which he probably still does, from this day onwards! And I wasn't the only one that would have thought this! Course, I'm dam well sure, the rest of our friends from out of work, would have still thought the same as I do, if they were still around! Because, of what they had all thought of them both, all those many years ago!
Not to mention, their weird, but, none-existent relationship, as we had all known it to be, was even like old Yo-Yo's! Yes! That's right! Yo-Yo's, that you may come across, going backwards and forth-wards, over and over again! Because, of the string, that after shortly slinging it forwards, goes mad! Like it didn't wanna control itself! But as I already mentioned, like everyone knew, as well as myself, their weird, and un-strange relationship, wasn't through real true love! But for who had always, saw them hanging around with each other for just one thing only! Course, of remembering how Matt was, with that fat-trollop of his!
As, we all around him, besides, his mates and those idiots from my old work-place could see the way Matt was like! Of not wanting to control his bodily functions below! Like how I mentioned, how he was! While always hanging around with all the those other girls, before his fat trollop had came along! Being so very immature as he was, that is! And yes! I was referring to Matt! Even though, really I didn't wanna to describe him in that way! Matt, was sure so very immature! And at times, acted like a complete prick! As, for herself! That big, enormous fat-trollop! Or that miserable, enormous, Faggot face! That I've got so many names for! Well just like Matt himself, didn't wanna control her huge, fat, humongous body, while one minute, she was with him! Then, the next! We would all see them being apart yet, again!
Until, we all saw those two measly twits, who certainly I'm describing both Matt and his fat trollop! Because of how it definitely fitted them down perfectly, while they were always together! Just like how Roald Dahl had written his two nasty characters, in one of his well-known books called, The Twits! Yes indeedy! That name had fitted them both down perfectly! Course for one! We wouldn't be at all surprised, that she was only stringing him along, because of knowing he wouldn't be able to see what she was doing, right in front of his biddy, but big brown sexy eyes! Which, was playing a dirty, stinking, rotten game! Yes! A game, which he couldn't lead his own bloody life! While Matt of course! Just didn't seem to wanna control his bodily functions below, while every time, being with his miserable fat trollop!
Which, everyone could always seem to hear, while she was coming our way! Because boy! It was either, like hearing a blooming loud, huge thump each time when her fat body was coming closer and closer towards our work! Or! Or that is! A very, very badly stink-bomb that could certainly went off at any time! Why! Well you could even say, she stank so very highly, that it was even bad than a poor, innocent, smelly skunk had! Which, as you know, does smell really badly, if anyone had got so nearer to them!
Only, knowing that we couldn't have escape from that awful, Miss O' mighty fat blob aka Matts fat-trollop coming over! Well the rest of those measly idiots from work had always seemed to acted like they were all palliz-waliz, towards Matt! Which meant, they had all acted like she was oh, so, bloody lovely! Weather they had liked her or not! They acted as if they all had all liked her, because of being Matts enormous, huge, fat trollop! But, as for myself! Well, knowing her as I do! And I do! Matts, "Miss O' stink-bomb" aka his fat trollop, had all knew she was definitely coming to see Matt! Because once again, it was of her very badly, foul, disgusting, aroma smell!
Not forgetting, that awfully, thump, thump sound when her enormous, huge, fat blob of a body, was getting more and more closer to us all! But for who the only person, that had always denied that, was Matt himself! The stupid and immature Matt! And of course, the rest of those "barstards," from where I had once worked! Because it was always the way, they had all reacted around Matt! Though, getting back to how I thought to myself, when I saw him, on that day! Well, as I thought, bloody hell man! Or! Even, oh my god! Just look at yourself now, Matt! Don't you look like you've let yourself down a lot! And I do mean, let yourself down!
Course, by looking at Matt now, well he also certainly looked-like he had gained some weight! Weight! That since all those many years ago, of when I had known him a bit better-like from work, hadn't had! Which, if I had the courage to do so, would now, personally shout out so loud to him, "hey Matt! "Haven't you gained a hell of a weight now! Which couldn't help reminding me of Humpty Dumpty, that sat on a wall! And okay! Even though, the guy had still sort of put a smile upon my face, on this day hate to admit that I still love him! Mad! I know! But honestly! And truly, I really I do! Madly! Passionately! And most of all, deeply!
Because through all those fifteen years, that I truly loved Matt! And boy! Do I! My feelings that I had, as really, truly got more and more stronger for him, throughout the years! Course, next year, it'll be sixteen years, that I've truly loved Matt! Honestly, it would! It'll be sixteen years! Then, the following year, would be seventeen and so on! But again, that wasn't my intend for feeling as I truly, still do for Matt! Why, hell no! Because, once again, it was all down to them! Them, as in from my old work-place that had played upon my feelings! Plus, Matt himself! Which, as you know, no one should ever do to anyone! Those "barstards! Course, boy! What I can tell yeah is, they had played with the wrong chick!
As for Matt! Well, I think I can safely say, I would know Matt wouldn't change! Because as there's a saying, Leopards don't charge their spots! Meaning, the way Matt had always acted towards only me, may I add, all those many years ago, nasty! Rude and horrible! Can't really, imaging seeing him changing into a more nicer and shyer person, over someone like me! Because of how Matt had always seemed to look really annoyed, with a nasty foul look, upon his face when he seemed to see me around! So, again, I'm so sadly to say, knowing how Matt truly were, all those many years ago, to me, can't ever see him changing into a more nicer and shyer person! As I've always dreamt of knowing! That's someone, wanting to be around someone like me, aka Sandy!
Yes! That's right! Me! Aka Sandy! For who Matt had really acted so nastily, half of the time, back then! But for who I've allowed myself to like! Because of not liking anybody, since of knowing him! But for why! Still loves to imagine to herself of meeting that someone that could only be so nice! As, well as, who could only be slightly shy, if they saw me around them! Even though, the way he was acting towards me, was actually the only person now, that could have done this to me! Then, rather someone else! Because of remembering how Matt wasn't at all a very nice person to only myself aka Sandy from work! Plus, of knowing full well, of what I do now, about Matt now, wouldn't sadly wanna know him in anyway!
Even if I do extremely love Matt so very much! Well once again, if I hadn't mentioned this already! do I! As, my answer to that, will always be yes! I will always love Matt, no matter what! Even if he tried to be a more nicer person then he was like, all those years back! Which I just could never see that from happening! Because of knowing, how he was to me! Plus, of knowing now, Matt as got loads of those filthy sex-objects! Which, in English terms, are their vile, revolting children! But, is not! Course, it was all through their none-extended, un-strange bloody relationship! That they had always kept going on and then, off with each other over and over again!
Which, to me! Is extremely sad! Because I've always been dreaming of him! Yes! That's right! Dreaming about Matt! The only difference though, for each time, of every night, that I had dreamt of him, was seeing his amazing big brown eyes! Eyes that was burning into my mind so constantly! And who! In my dreams, was always a more sweeter and nicer person to me! Not to mention, who had liked to be funny and slightly shyer, while trying to be around me! Then, rather, who had really preferred to be in reality, quite nasty! Moody and most of all, giving yours truly, that terrifying look of anger upon his face! Course, truly! A lot of times, Matt really had always given only to myself, tmind you hat terrifying, angry, moody look!
Even while he was always being around those so immature girls from work! Plus, that repulsive, skinny, pencil-stick Wednesday aka Bobby! Not forgetting, who was being around with that most hideous, fat-trollop of his! That, who had definitely had played a dirty game, by giving birth on purpose, mind you, to all those three filthy sex-objects of theirs! Plus! Who is now, his wifie! Yes! That's right! Because of how she had played a dirty game, by telling him, "I'm up the dove! Which of course, had made out to him, I'm now pregnant! Can't or even try to leave her! But, even if he won't now married! I probably still wouldn't wanna know him! Course for now having all those loads and loads of filthy sex-objects by her! As that isn't me! No way! Not to mention, I wouldn't wanna know anyone, that would! As, well as, don't forget how had truly behaved the way he had towards me, all those years ago! Nasty! And who had most of the times, had given myself such a angry, moody look, upon his face! While of course, being around with all the rest of those other "barstards" from work!
And even though, what I had said about Matt! Well, most of the times, you could say I just couldn't help myself from having fond memories of how he was! Because of acting like he probably wanted to be funny and nice! Like he had done, half of the time whistle being with all those other silly, stupid, immature girls, that not just worked there! But with me, Matt had more he less made out that he only pretend to act nicer! So, natural, I just couldn't help myself from having those fewer good memories of Matt! Only, like the rest of them, I could see that he had needed to grow up himself also! Plus that weenie, pencil-stick, Wednesday aka Bobby! That ever since she had started working with us, had noticed both her and Matt had seemed to get along! And get along like they were already palsy-walsy! Then, rather like two work colleagues would!
But there again! They were like the rest of them! So, immature! Those "barstards! As well as, that one particle time, when Matt had simply came waltzing into work and just plainly ignoring me! Yes! That's right! Matt had simply just came waltzing in and just plainly ignored me! And yet, who carried walking on towards that Gruesome looking, Wednesday aka Bobby to talk to her! Who had thought she could get any fucking guys, with that hideous look of hers! Which what does that tell me again, about Matt! But had showed he certainly needed to grow up! Because of noticing Matt was really ignoring me completely to chat to Bobby! And then, to Emmitt! Who had came wondering into work shortly afterwards!
Which, had made yours truly wonder to herself, that the way Matt was, wasn't any different to like any of those other jerk-offs around the Town! Which, to be perfectly frank! Had honesty never liked, about him! So, even though, I may love Matt! Truly! Madly! And deeply! Not forgetting, mind you, so very passionately! Think I know that the way Matt really was then! By how he had seemed to just love turning himself into that nasty character of Mr Hyde, from those stories, of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde! Had made this girl realise to herself, just how that's another reason, of why, wouldn't wanna know him for sure! As, a person! And who as a friend!
Because trust me! Why would I wanna know anyone, that who was once mostly horrible to me! Course, all I had done, was really allowed myself to care about that him! Then, carrying on liking different Actors, from different series! Now, would I! No! I would not! Even if I truly had wanted to know my darling, Matt as I had done, from when I first time I knew him! Wouldn't wanna to now! Not if he was still like as he was! Nasty! With the attitude that he had! Annoying! But with the most angry, moody look upon his face! Always, at some point, had told me, to go away! Or say, "fuck off, over and over again! No chance! So, because of him, as he was towards me, this girl as now gone straight back into dreaming! Dreaming of what if there was someone out there! So very nice! Nicer and shyer! As I had always imagined! Or dreamt of! Like I had done, when I very, very young! For meeting that special person in my life! As well as, like my beloved dad had always once told me, could see that will happen to you, one day, Sandy!
But which, I had always thought now! Being a mutual person then I was! That when will that day come! Hey! As I had always dreamt of that! Not who would actually thought, that someday it would happen to me! Because, boy! I always thought that if I did, well I would still like them, to be tall! Dark hair! Nice eyes! And who as to have a really lovely, smile! Plus! Who as to be slightly broad! Not who's weight that seriously, turned into pure fat or podgy! Like a fat pig! As, this girl had always, once loved to dream of meeting someone, who could have even been a little shy, like herself! Oh yes! They would have certainly have to be a little shyer over me! As, I liked that in a guy! If they truly existed, that is! Then, rather a big-headed prick, who's a nasty, rude with a so moody-angry look upon their face!
Which, sometimes Matt had given, me while I was still working at where I used to work! Course, boy! At times, Matt always wanted to show off in what seemed a very nasty way, while, being around with that so-call, toffee-nose bitch aka Big Liz! Yes! That's right! Matt had always seemed to act like a total prick, whistle being around that bitch aka big Liz! Which, had showed signs, that they were mentally, bitter twisted that had no remorse for, while I was always around both her and Matt! Which, I was referring to big Liz! But who! While, each time I was around, Matt had loved to turn into that Mr Hyde! Who was the only time I never liked him!
Though, the trouble was! In those early days, when I was younger, a lot of guys had just simply liked Tarts! Tarts! That would only go around with them, for the sake of having sex! Sex! And more sex on their minds! Then, rather, simply like myself, who had always dreamt of wanting to know someone, first! Then, who could maybe later on, had wanted to know each other better, for a very long time! Rather just rushing into something, that many stupid girls, out there now, even nowadays! Like being a relationship, that only knowing the guy, that they maybe with, for a short period of time! Is only thinking of having sex after meeting them! Then, rather wanting to know them better, like I would! If it had came to it thought!
Which, shows that they have no idea, what is a real true relationship is! Who like myself, can safely say, does! Course, as you know, even though, I had ended up falling head over heels in love now, which again, wasn't my fault, at all! Or even intentionally, that I had ended up being in love with Matt! No! It weren't! Because, it was all those sodden "barstards" that had played upon this poor girls emotions, before Matt had decide to leave! Which, was leaving me all emotional! And in tears! Tears, that I had truly ended up crying over Matt, for two and a half years! And that's no joke! I really had cried for two and an half years, over my darling, Matt! Which, I really wouldn't have thought, that I would have fallen in love, let alone with Matt for real! But I did! And that's no lie!
So, ok! He may have wanted to go and move on! But really! To do what he had done, before he left! By joining in with those rest of those other "barstards" from work and decided to play with my emotions! As, well as, who thought it was funny! Course, that was not expectable in my book! But who, at the same time, was with that so-call non-extent relationship, with his fat-trollop! As, you could say, this was more like someone wanting to keep switching any old tap, on and then off over and over again and again! As, well as other examples that I'll mention to you later on! Course, yes! He truly had started to hang around her like that! Because he acted like a bloody particle, immature person! Then, who really someone that had kept on saying, Matt just doesn't know what he wants! But did that bother me at that time! Why! Hell no!
Because at first, I didn't look at Matt, like I had eventually done! And who felt for him later on, before he left! Why no! Course, it was really from those Wacky's, that had truly told me what they had thought of Matt and his stupid so-call on-off relationship with her! You know! His fat trollop! Because what one of them had told me was, "it's all in Matts head," "that truly believed, he's in a real relationship! But who they didn't describe her as that miserable, big, fat-trollop, like I added, later on! But there again, I personally, did have more as a good reason, for calling her that! And so many other names, like I had done! And still do!
Especially, how firstly, after getting her humongous, fat blob of a body, that we would call, up the dove! So, she could trap Matt! Because of believing I aka Sandy, was after Matt, romantically! Which, I won't! Really! I won't! I mean, come on! Of remembering Matt had acted with those so many girls around then! Not to mention, of how he acted with me, at times! You know, really liking to turn into Mr Hyde! So, I don't know why, everyone had reckoned I was after him! Course, they must have been mad! As, all that I felt, at that time was my feelings had felt like it was mixed-up! Like I didn't know, weather I was either coming or going! Because at the time, I didn't really see Matt as I had done, like later on! Course, around that period of time, my feelings didn't seemed to have been played upon from those at work or him, in fact!
But saying that! Did you know, Matts so-call big, fat trollop, girlfriend that was really an on-off relationship with him had also, played a big part in this! Because, would you believe, that, that enormous, huge, fat Bitch aka Matts other half had ended up threatening me! Me, shortly after having their first baggage! Yes! That's right! She had threated me, at work! After wondering into our work to show off their newly-born spog! In plain English terms, that's a baby! But, if I hadn't already said this! A baby, it was not, to that gruesome, hideous, Wednesday aka Bobby! But a really truly hideous spog! That once again, came out through their none-existent relationship! That was always, on one minute! Then, the next! You would hear it's off again! As, that was what it was like! On and then, flaming off!
But it was only after noticing Matt shortly wondered in, that I also, discover his other half, had showed me her true identity! Which was being a real bitch! A real big, humongous, fat bitch of Matts! Though, I had wondered what if my friends from Wacky's was still around here! Would they all agree with me, by thinking like I had! Who was starting to really see her as she truly was! But there again, saying this! It does take two, to try and make any relationship to work! Then, for what that humongous, fat, blob, that people would call a body was actually really doing! Even though, Matt had probably didn't want to see! Course, of how she was always like! Like for example! For how those from my work had done with me! Which, was playing a game with my emotions! But in her case! Had truly played a game upon Matts feelings and life!
Before, it had came obvious shortly wondered in and also, discovered his other-half had showed her true colours to myself! Which was being a real bitch! A real big, humongous, fat bitch of Matt! Which, I so wanted to give that fat trollop, a blooming good left hook! As, well as saying, "oh! Look! "There's, that fat-trollop again! Who's now, Matts Misses! Poor sod! Who I can see she had definitely played a dirty, rotten, game by getting that humongous, fat, body of hers, up the dove! Or locked up, should I say! Course, of how she probably didn't want anyone else, to know Matt in that sort of way! That if it had came to it! Of course! Which, firstly! Showed how she didn't want Matt to lead his own life! Or could even trust him!
Because come on! That's really the whole point, in any relationship, if ones in one! Trust! And being loyalty to each other! Not, playing around! Which, had showed they were doing, while being with each other, on then off again! And again! But, yes! most of us, including myself could see that fat trollop had been playing a dirty rotten game! Because of not wanting to allow the Matt to choose their own path, in their own lives! And secondly! Secondly! Of how she really acted like a bloody control freak! Then, rather, someone who would allow the guy, aka Matt to decide weather they had wanted to be with them or not! Course, that's what she was more then what I said about her! She was definitely a control freak, alright! With one hell of a huge, humongous, fat, faggot of a body! Then, normally seeing a fat person, just waddling around in the Kingfisher Centre, half of the time! With, may I add, her very hideous, old, deformed hag, of her Dinosaur mummy! Just walking along side her!
Though, don't forget, that was how we had all thought, of Matts so-call "girlfriend" that is! And I was only referring to those that had knew him, from out from work! Not, who that worked with us! But, who I had only spoken like this, about that twisted fat blob, before all of them, from work had really played upon my feelings over Matt! As, well as, it was when I found out, that it was an on-off relationship once again, through those that worked at Wackys! Then, rather a real and true relationship! But, just before that huge, fat-trollop had threaten me at work on that day, I had noticed Matt had also came wondering into work! Which, while he had, had noticed he was truly giving me one hell of a horrible, angry, moody look! A look that really had made poor me feel, that he was trying to say, I don't like you Sandy! Which to be perfectly frank! Had already knew what Matt had totally felt for me!
But as I felt I couldn't stay now, knowing that the guy, that I loved was right in front of me or just simply around me, went wondering into the back to hide myself away! Not because of how I was feeling for him! But who, after coming back out from the staff-room door to carry on with my work! Had discovered that nasty fat-trollop of his, had showed her true colours to me! Because, after waddling her very humongous, big, fat body, towards me, with her pram, said, by looking straight at me, "I had three phone-calls, that had wanted to speak to Matt! Who had then, continued, with her huge enormous gob, "how they were also friends of Sandy's! Which after thinking, so! She more then less, had lashed out to me! By saying, "if I ever hear that you had been talking to Matt! "Or even go nearer to him! As well as, "touch him! "Well, I will send the Police out, onto you!
Which, she ended up, looking down at their newly-born sex-object! Saying, "course, look what I've done! "As, Matt as now got responsibilities! Which, showed that bloody bitch had certainly played a right dirty game, to trap him down! So, she wouldn't allow him out of her sight for good! So, because of all this! Matt had ended up marrying her! Course of how she had trapped him all those years ago, by not only having one or two sex-objects! But who had ended up having those three filthy sex-objects! And even though, those that knew him from Wackys had said, it was all an on-off relationship, then a who's in a proper relationship! As, you really couldn't miss them both! Even if one tried! You just couldn't miss that humungous fat blob of hers! Going blob-de-blob! Blob! And more blob! Blob! Course, of trying to walk that deformed, fat, huge body around while she was with him! As, she looked-like she had a twisted huge, fat face also!
But who later on! Had decided to play yet, another dirty rotten game! Yes! That's right! That humungous, fat body of hers that I can only describe, better known as, the Blob from a old film, that had starred the great, well-known, Actor, Steve McQueen had told Matt, that she was "up the dove" for the fourth time! Yes! That's right! For the fourth bloody time! Meaning, of course, she was fucking pregnant! And all this, was probably down to thinking, did she do all this because of thinking Matt had liked someone else!
And like always! From what she had gone and done in the past, when she had probably thought I was after him! Which, why would I want to! Hey! Being that the way he was towards me! Acting so horrible! Plus, who had a terrifying look, that I wouldn't like in any person, anyway! Nasty! Mean-looking! With an extremely horrible, angry moody look about him! No! I flaming wouldn't! As, well as, I wouldn't, for getting that fat, humongous, blob of his, aka his fat trollop getting herself "up the dove!
I mean! Even though, how much I really love Matt, as I still do now, in the year 2023! I would never thought, for one minute going back then, that I really wanted him! Him of all people, for myself in a romantic way! Why! Course, that's not in my nature to say, "oh, Matt! "I want you! Like a particle, jealous bimbo! Such as herself! That great, enormous, fat trollop of his! Course, once again! The guy wasn't at all nice to me! Even though, he might have thought he was! He was not! Not like that I once imagined in a guy! Shy! But who was extremely so very nice and that would make me laugh!
And secondly! Secondly! It was that Matt had only wanted any girls for sex! Then, for like myself, who wouldn't! Because as I still loves to just think of meeting someone that's just thinking as I do! Being an old fashion romantic! As, I'm not someone that would say to herself, "I want you Matt! Or, "I need you! Like some pathetic, spoilt, selfish bimbo, once again! Who was even like the Creature from the Bottomless-Pit! Or some Creature from The Black Lagoon of Matts! Had truly always behaved, when they were around him! With it's fat twisted miserable-face of hers! Even if they tried to smile, just couldn't!
Because of looking like a miserable old Sag! Which, don't forget, the name, The huge, humongous fat trollop as that is what they are more well-known, of around here now! If one does see, around the Redditch Kingfisher Centre! Not forgetting, the name The Blob either! As they had showed that they were the kind that was trying to get what they wanted! By tying that so-call person, down, "which of course, is Matt! Because of now thinking of what she done, well you or anyone else, can't have him! Course, look what I've now gone and done to him! Hey! Just look! As, my humongous, fat, large, blob "of a body," is now pregnant yet again!
Which, for the way, they kept going on and way back then, always going on and off with each other, well like I was told! And told by my friends from Wackys! Whatever that humongous fat trollop had truly gone and done, well if anyone could see also, what that fat bimbo had done! Would also, probably agree, that isn't a human child from a "real, true love relationship! But! But what was from that coming and going from sex just sex! Which, all of those filthy three kids of theirs yet, again was not! Not through a real relationship! So, instead, of saying children, it was their sex-objects! Course, of the way, they were truly going out together way back then, on but then off! Over and over, for just pure having sex! And not like a serious relationship!
Course, once again, I didn't even think for one minute, that I wanted Matt for myself! No way! But, what I do believe is, what Karma goes around, it will sure come back to them! So, even though, it takes two, for a relationship to work out! Well, like I was always told then, by those that knew him around, had always said, "it's only Matt, that thinks, in his head, that it's a relationship! As well as, mentioning, "course, you can't say it is a relationship! But, only sex! "Sex! And more bloody sex that he's with!
Not forgetting, they also, said, "course, would you call a relationship, that's always, on off going-like? "Well would you Sandy?" Which, like anyone would, if their not so fickle or stupid, like how Matt and his humongous, Fat, bitter twisted Trollop were together, back then! And who knows! Probably still are, until this day onwards! Agreed with them, that, "yes! "That isn't a relationship! "But, like as you said, must be just for sex, sex and more bloody sex! As Matt did act like that! So, if I was asked, now, what I would have to say to Matt! Well it would have to be, "ha! "Bloody ha, ha, to you, Matt," "wherever you may be! Course, like I mention, what karma goes around, must have come right back to you, for the way, how Matt had truly hurt me, all those years back.
Not to mention though, Matt, maybe fickle or stupid, if he hasn't worked this one out, already! Course, who may have a serious problem with her, if he knew, what Sandy knew of what his so-call Bimbo of a wife, had seriously done, behind his bloody back! If and only, if they had separated or parted yet again, like always! Before, maybe going back to Matt and possibility reconvening that great big idiot, back then, that her huge, fat blob of a body is expecting a Filthy Spog!
Which, it was in their case, as we all knew! Course, I very much doubt, that those that was his mates or family, would say, "but, it's not! It's a human Child! Though, if they only knew, like how a lot of us did, from out of work-wise! As, it was plainly sick, to even imagine that Matt was like that! But, yes! Some of us had knew he was like that! With his bitter, yet twisted, deformed, repulsive, blonde girlfriend! Who was that fat trollop even then, for just having sex! Sex! And more flaming sex! Then rather going out with that special someone, in the right way!
Anyway, some years back now, while Sandy aka myself was just minding my own bloody business, just walking towards W.H SMITHS, had not only noticed that "humongous, Fat, Trollop" was walking so slowing towards me, wearing dark glasses! But who wasn't with her hideous, Ancient, Prehistoric, old hag, of a "Dinosaur Mother" that does look so bitter and very twisted, if anyone knew of her! Nor was she either, walking with one of their trashy sex-objects that she had ended up saying to Matt, "I'm up the dove, over and over again-wise! Why, no! And as for thinking, well was she walking with Matt! Well, the answer to that is, hell no! She was not with my gorgeous brown eyes! That had always had sent me feeling shivers down my spine! And well, you should know the rest! But saying that weather it could have been Matt! Well, far from it! Course, what I had noticed, while walking past W.H SMITHS was seeing her, holding hands with some tall, wimpy, but lanky guy, that had dark, wavy short hair!
Which, all that I could basically, think of at that present time, was, you fucking Bitch, you! Course, you can't hide from me! By trying to hide that ugly look of yours, behind those glasses of yours, smirking away! But, how could you, go behind Matts back like this! How! And who had I had truly thought, how could you! Just how could you, hurt poor Matt like this! Course, of imagining him, possibly finding out that his fat trollop could have had a secret affair, before, maybe, going straight back to Matt, like you guys, normally acted in the past! But also just feeling for how Matt would really react to all this whenever finding that out! As, he would be distraught! Hurt! As, well as, possibly feeling dam well, humiliated, by how she had truly went behind his back and maybe having sex with yet, another! Which, in some ways, if he could have looked back to how he treated me! Known of what he had done to me!
Which, even though, I could have been wrong, about thinking she was having affair behind Matts back, with this slightly tall, but "skinny-lanky" guy! Who did have the same hair colour that Matt had, then! Well let's just say that later on, that fat trollop of Matts, showed up around in the Redditch Kingfisher Centre, with yet, another "sex-object! Who I couldn't help but wonder was this one, Matts? Or Not! As, I had thought, I wouldn't at all surprised, that, that won't be Matts sex-object! Because of that time of seeing her walking past "W.H SMITH" as she did! Holding hands with somebody else, then Matt, smiling!
Though, as for myself now! Well, let me say, I'm now enjoying my life, like my dad had so wanted me to, before he had sadly past away, in 2008. Which, after thinking to myself, back then, that after Matt departure from our work, now lost my beloved dad! Who not only loved him so very much! But who knew how I truly felt for Matt! So, the way I was feeling had not only made me feel I've lost yet, another important person in my life! Though, the difference was between them, was Matt was really someone that I now love forever! Even though, I felt I allowed him to go his own way, due to these emotions I've never had in my entire life! And as for my dad! Well, being so very close to my dad, had took his death, bad!
And even though, I do still very much love Matt, weather he's here or not, I will always love him! Course, my feelings is not like any other that would turn on and then off! As, my feelings are genuine! Not who would allow someone to treat someone like how his fat-trollop had! Course, my feelings have got more and more stronger, throughout these fifteen years, for him! Then, rather Luke Wilson! Who, like you Matt, did think I could be in love with! Because of reminding me of Matt! And you only Matt! Course, it was those dam eyes of Luke's! That had always, always had made me thought of you, my darling, Matt! Because of somehow used to look deeply into your dreamy dark, melting eyes! You! And no one else! As, you have eyes that would make me feel like you could definitely hypnotise me, in an instance!
But, getting back to what if myself and Matt would once again, cross paths after all these years or just simply bump into one another! Well, let me tell you, I can't see that from ever happening! Because of how I'm sure he's still married! Married, to that Creature of the Bottle-less-Pit! Or! Or that Creature from the Black Lagoon! As well as, after playing a very dirty game, to trap Matt from living his own life and making his mistakes! Like having loads of trashy sex-objects from her humongous, fat body by him! Course, I like nice guys! Really, nice guys, and not someone that just want sex! Instead, that is of someone, that from my past, had truly acted like "Mr Hyde" from Jekyll and Hyde towards me! Which of course, Matt was honestly like towards myself! Not forgetting, if he had disliked me then, when I knew him, well then, why would I wanna ever see him again! Course, I'm certainly not allowing anyone like himself, to hurt my feeling all over again, by first, giving this girl, a look that could be a very moody-angry look!
Anyway, it was more when I said secondly, it was having bloody loads of trashy sex-objects from that blob that we call a body! As that was what they all are, you know! Bloody sex-objects of theirs! Not, children! Because like I was always told, from those, that knew Matt around work, those many years ago, but I'm not talking of those measly, freakly "barstards," that was so friendly with Matt from work! Why, no! It was those that simply knew of him from out of work! That always said, "hey, Sandy, would you call, anybody that thought that they were in a relationship, but going out with someone, in an on and of relationship? A relationship? As well as, telling me, "like Matt that really believed he's in!
So, anyway! If anyone and I do mean, absolutely anyone, stumble upon that great humongous, fat, but twisted Trollop, going around the Kingfisher area, in the Redditch Town Centre! Then, you will not unfortunately, seen Matt's wifie! But, who as sometimes, just sometimes seen her around with either, one of their sex-objects! Whatever, you want to look at it! Because sometimes, that hideous creature, "The Creature from the Black Lagoon" goes around with her hideous, deformed mother! Who may I had, is a very ugly, wrinkly, decrepit old hag! That truly looks more and more like a "Dinosaur" then, anything else! And yes! That's right! A hideous Dinosaur!
*** Though, getting back of meeting Matt, after all these year! Well, yes! It would be just so strange! But as I'm more realistic, can't ever see that from ever happening! Only, imaging it! If we had! Like just what if we did? But, there again, would I want to! Or not yet again? Course, now, I'm a dreamer, yes, a real dreamer, not someone who's so bloody desperate, for looking for a guy, because, as I'm a total, old fashion, romantic person, that believes that true love, takes a hell of a long time to start between two people who may love each other. Then rather just meeting anyone, then either start going out with them or having sex, which I'm not like that at all!
There again, if I did bump into Matt, after all these years, well, really I don't know what would truly happen? Only, maybe guess that the guy hasn't probably changed, course of knowing how Matt disliked me, way back then. And not to mention, he had joined in with the rest of those measly Barstards from work, to play upon my feeling over him, so all those hopes and dreams, that I once had of dreaming, as now all been shattered! As I can't believe in that phrase, there's always someone out there! Or that, I will meet someone nice, because of how I truly feel for Matt deeply! So, instead, now I just think to myself, oh! If only, I can meet, Luke Wilson, in person? If only? Then, rather, imagining seeing Matt again, course, with Luke, well, first of all, the Actor, just wouldn't know of why I truly love him so much!
And secondly! Secondly! With "Luke Wilson" well, I know I wouldn't run away from him, like how I did when noticing Matt! Because of how I was truly feeling, whenever he just couldn't help himself, by knocking this girl out! By allowing me to just gaze into those deepest, darkest brown eyes, whenever he was always around! Not forgetting, his lovely and sexy smile! And I do mean, his sexy smile! Because oh boy! Could Matt certainly hypnotise me on the spot, whenever I always saw him, course of ending up blushing right in front of him! Which to be perfectly frank, was bloody worth it, if I have to admit it to myself!
***But, for watching any of "Luke Wilsons" films, especially, The Family Stone! Which, I love more, had always somehow, reminded me, of looking straight into Matts, adorable big brown eyes! So, Matt, wherever you are! Thanks, for allowing this girl to not just have those true love feelings, that I had started to have for you! But who I still do from this day onwards! Course, I'm not like anyone you had ever meet!
As, that why, whenever I would see any of those Luke Wilson, DVD's especially, that one film, The Family Stone, would truly imagine that I've got that very same feelings as I do for you Matt!
***As, I truly believed then, that after Matt had sadly left our work and then, shortly after, coming across to the very first DVD of Luke Wilson well, I not only felt that was so bloody uncanny, of how I did come cross this Actor, right there and then. But who thought, it was like a sign for yours truly to say, "well, Sandy, maybe you should start to dream of loving this Actor! Because of whom he truly resembles me of! So, again Matt! Wherever you maybe now, my brown eyes, thanks darling! Just thanks, for just allowing this girl to now be hopeless in love, with not only one person! But two! "Which is Matt and that Actor, Luke Wilson!
Only, this girl really does feel like she will only love the one forever and ever! Then, her fantasy dream guy, Luke Wilson! And that's you Matt! So, wherever you may be, my darling, I sure truly am in love with you Matt! "Really I am! "I love you! "I love you! "And love you! Just remember that, my darling, if you ever do come across in reading this! Course, no matter what you had always thought of me, even maybe now Matt! Yours truly can never forget you in a hurry! Never! Never! And never! And I don't think I would ever want to! Who's the only one that had ever made this girl go all weak in her knees and having butterflies in her stomach, whenever she had always saw you around! So, either, come back to me! Or! Or Matt, wherever you are, please come back out and play with Me! Please! Please! And please! Course, you should know, by now, how I love you so very much!!!
So, first of all, my darling! Let me just leave you with...
"Brown Eyes! "Brown Eyes! "Where for are you, my Brown Eyes???
Course, secondly! "Help! I need somebody! "Help! "Not just anybody! "Help! "I need somebody! "And oh Brown Eyes, that's you! And no one else!
So, thank you my darling, Matt wherever you may be! Course, for giving me that gift! A gift that no other as ever done to me... Which, was falling heads over heels in love with you Matt and no one else!
Only, when you had left, it really tore my whole world apart! Really you did, my darling! And that's no joke! Because when you left our old work-place, those many years back, you took something from me! Which not only as you know, left me crying over you for two and a half years!!! But! But you had left a very huge gap, where my heart was! As, that's how much I love you Matt! You truly left a very huge gap, where my heart was! So, Matt I want you to come back into my life again! Course, boy! Am I missing you, terribly!
Only, if you do come waltzing back into my life again, well just for god sake Smile! Not looking up slightly, with a very moody expression upon your face!
Only, just please, please try to start to smile! And I do mean, start to really smile, if I do notice yea! Then, looking as you normally do! Very Moody! With an angry look upon your face! Plus! Think about growing your lovely hair back to how it was! Short and fairly spiky hair! Then, having a hideous cropped hair!
Though, I don't wanna ever want to think of anyone in that way, in romantic-wise, if they got a top nosh job! Course, I've never been like that! Going for guys, that could be loaded! No-sir-re! For I'm just someone that still loves, loves to dream of meeting that someone! That if they do exist, with just having normal job! As well as, who as got to have the the most adorable smile ever! Not forgetting, eyes that had left me while always thinking of him, burning into my mind! Because of knocking this girl way into orbit and back, when he had used to be around! Looking as he had! With that mazing powerful, melting captivating eyes of his! And who as a very lovely smile, that at times, looked-like he was slightly shy, like myself! Plus, who had looked slightly board to me, then, being big! Though, because of Matt, I do like guys now, with short spiky hair! Not cropped! But, short and spiky!!!
And even though, I wanted to dedicate this book of mine to my beloved dad, who not only knew how I deeply felt for Matt! But who was the one that had told me to write this! I would like to somehow, dedicate part of this, to Matt!
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