Wednesday, 5 January 2000

Playing Games - Chapter 42

 



   CHAPTER 42

                                      


                                             FIFTEEN YEARS LATER

                     

                             WHAT HAPPENED TO BOTH SANDY AND MATT?

                                                               AS WELL AS

                   WHAT IF, THEIR PATHS WOULD CROSS EACH OVER AGAIN!

                                                            JUST WHAT IF?


 Fifteen years later, Yes! I do sometimes, just sometimes, wonder, what if our paths would cross again?   Or may bump into each other, by pure accident-like!  Would I be pleased to see him?  Or not?  Well, saying that, recently well on July 2022, while this girl was just  simply coming out of the Ladies, from the Kingfisher Centre well who should take me by complete surprise by passing at that precise moment?  But him!  My darling Matt!  

 Yes!  It was definitely my darling Matt!  Which was so strange to see, course, as been over fifteen years since I truly saw him properly!  But who I hate to admit it, still!  Do truly love the guy!  Which, maybe some would say, "that's mad, for thinking you're still in love with someone for that long!  But let me tell you all, because I've always seem myself as a old fashion romantic, well as a youngster, had always wondered what if those feelings had occur in my life for falling in love with someone?  Just what if?  Because, if I ever did!  Well, it will be for entirety, then just one minute I would like someone!  Then, the next, I would go off them!  So, maybe meeting I would meet another or another!  

 Which, in my book would never in a million years, would do that to another, I would love!  So, naturally, even though of how I feel like I'm in love with Matt still!  Well, I will always love him!  No matter, of how he had treated me way back then!  This girl is very much in love him alright!  As I could never switch all those feelings that I had and still have off!  As, well as forget of what he looked-like!  Never!

 Anyway, getting back to when I saw him walking pass the ladies toilets, at that precise moment, on that day!  Because even though, he had took me by complete surprise, well did it certainly made this girl realise to herself that I missed you so much Matt!  Course, of remembering that way back then, when my darling had decided to leave our work, well he not only broke my heart into two!  But I certainly felt that he had left a huge gap of where my heart was!  Because of how I truly love him!  

 But who knew that he couldn't have cared for what he had done to me?  I mean, for how he really hurt my feeling when he left!  Course, of how I really had cried and cried over him, for at least two and half years!  Not to mention, when he weren't working around Redditch no more!  Course, when I occasionally had noticed him, of walking around the Centre with either one of his friends or his mum, well lets just say, this girl couldn't stick around!  As, my emotions had got to the better of me, by allowing tears to reappear from my eyes!  

 Which, meant, I had to leave the Kingfisher Centre, straight away, course of thinking of him!  As, well as, I had started to cry, all over again!  But more so, when I got home and hid myself in the front room!  Course by now, my tears had really certainly felt like they were running down my face!  Until, there was no more tears!  Or that I cried myself to sleep! Which, must have showed how much I really loved Matt! 

 So, when I saw him, as like I said, well even though he was older, just like everyone else now, well lets just say, my feelings hadn't changed one bit!  In fact, if you must know, as years flown by, my feeling for Matt as grown stronger and stronger!  Course, just by seeing him as I did, before wondering into H&M a clothes shop, well lets just say, I couldn't help myself by looking back at him!  Just don't ask me why?  As I don't know why myself!  

 Only, I couldn't help it!  While noticing he was walking further away on his own, carrying a black lap-top over his shoulder and wearing a black T-Shirt!  But boy!  What this girl had notice of him, was, if that was Matt?  That I had saw!  Well brother!  Did he seem to have lost his good looks, that he once had!  

 But who I didn't see that was important in my book!  As it wasn't the good-looks that matter!  Or that I liked!  But looking into those deepest, darkest, sexy brown eyes of his!  And boy!  Did Matt always seemed to knock this girl way out!  Or even send me on cloud 9!  Course, if I used to see Matt, like I had!  Well, you would understand from what I'm about to tell you!  As he had eyes of melting, mesmerising and captivating look about them!  Because, those eyes of his, for me, was oh so dam sexy!  Plus, they were the most adorable big brown eyes, you would not believe!  

 And as for his smile!  Well, that was like a bonus for me!  Course, with that look in those eyes of his, he really had such a knockout smile to!  If only he would have smile more often by looking at me though?  If only?  But he hardly did!  So, getting back then, when I just sometimes saw him, had made this chick, feel like going all tingly in herself!  In other words, I felt like I had butterflies in my stomach!  And as for my knees!  Well, because of how I could have been feeling, my knees, had sometimes even started to tremble a little when just looking into those eyes of his!  And as for that short, spiky but slick brown hair that he once had, well what I saw, was no more spiky slick brown hair!   But short cropped hair!  Which if I had the chance, would have told him to, "please grow your hair back to how it was Matt?"  "Oh, just please do it? 

 Anyway, while looking back to see him, well even though, what came to mind was, bloody hell man!  Haven't you Matt, seemed to have gained some weight!  Which to be perfectly frank, wouldn't have really bother me, if the guy had somewhat took some notice of me?  Because way back then, even though how Matt had acted towards me, at times!  He had simply made this girl feel like she was mostly invisible around him more!  And you must know of what that feels like?  As it made me feel like I didn't exist to them!  So, while I saw him of going off, well I spotted he had was a Tattoo on his arm now!   

 *But what had surprised me more, was this girl didn't tilt her head just slightly, like I used to!  Course maybe it was the way he really looked now!  But who once again, wouldn't have bother me, if Matt had like me as a person!  Why, hell no!  Course, it was still Matt to me!  The guy, who this girl will always loves in her heart of hearts, but can live without knowing he didn't like me!  Only, the rest that had worked in my old work!  

 **  And as for his hair now!  Well, instead of how I once saw him with short, but slick and spiky!  His hair was now really cropped down!  

 Which did look so adorable in my eyes!  But who also, had somehow used to bring that shyness out of me, by just gazing into those captivating sexy brown eyes!  But, for the very first time, when I saw him, from that certain distance, on that day, the guy just didn't do that to me, at all!  Only, who made this girl thought to herself, bloody hell man!  Or!  Oh my god!  Just look at you Matt?  Don't you seemed that you've let yourself down a lot!  Course, by looking at him now, well as I said, he had certainly gained a lot of weight-wise, since all those years, when I knew him more from work! 

 And ok!  Even though, the guy had sort of put a smile upon my face that day!  Well, what I still hate to admit it to myself, was how I still truly love him!  Mad!  I know!  But honestly, I really do still love that bugger!  Madly!  Passionately!  And deeply!  But, again, that wasn't my fault for feeling as I still do, for Matt!  Why!  Hell no!  Because, no one should play with peoples feelings, as they all had, those many years ago!  The Barstards!  Course, boy!  Have they played with the wrong chick or what!  

 As for Matt!  Well, I think I can safely say, I would know Matt wouldn't change!  Because of knowing full well, that guys like him, Leopards just don't charge spots!  Meaning, of course, as the way Matt was like towards me those many years ago, well I could never see them changing into a nicer and shyer person, over someone like me!  Which I've always liked in a person!  But which sadly, which he weren't!  Because of how Matt wasn't a nice person with me aka Sandy most of the time! 

 Course, of simply behaving like Mr Hyde most of the time, which was only with myself, from Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde stories!  And why do I say this?  Well, it's because of having a good memory, of how he was to me!  For acting the way he had, towards me, while at the same time acting funny and nicer, with all those rest of those silly, stupid, immature girls that not just worked there!  But who seriously needed to bloody grow up!  Plus that weenie, Pencil-stick, Wednesday aka Bobby!  

 That since she started to work with us, had noticed that both her and Matt had seemed to get so palsy-walsy like!  Meaning, of course, how they acted like they were the best of friends already!  Then rather wanting to have had a laugh with me, then simply ignoring me, like he did!  Not forgetting, himself, mind you, that needed to grow up more around work!  Why!  Because of noticing, he wasn't really any different to like all those other jerks, around Redditch, when it had came to girls!  Which, to be frank, I never liked! 

 So, even though, I may love Matt, truly, madly and deeply!  Not to mention, passionately!  Well, I will always, always love the him!  Only, I think knowing the way Matt was, by turning himself into that nasty character of Mr Hyde back then, had made this girl realise what he was really like, as that person!  Well, I don't think I probably wanna know someone, who was mostly horrible to me!  Even if that was like wanting to know him as a person or a friend-wise!  Like how part of me had wanted to be!  But who because of him, as gone straight back to dreaming, of what if there was someone so nice and shy out there for me? 

 As I always imagine or dreamt of what if I could meet someone though?  That I can say, that special person!  Like my beloved dad had always once told me!  Course, he definitely had said he could see that will happen to me, one day!  But which I had always thought, but when will that day be?  As I had always only dreamt of this!  Not who would have thought won't ever happen for me!  Because, boy!  If it did!  Well I still like them to be tall, dark hair, nice eyes and who truly as to have a lovely smile!  Not forgetting, mind you!  They would certainly have to be slightly broad, not fat, as like a fat pig!  But slightly board!  Plus, this girl would always love to dream of meeting someone who's a little shy!  Oh yes!  They would certainly have got to be a little shy!  As I like that in a guy!     

 Though, the trouble was in those days, a lot of guys had just simply liked Tarts!  That just goes around for the sake of having a good time!   Then rather, wanting to know someone that they could know first, then who knows, ending up falling in love for real!  Like I had!  Course, if you remember?  That was what happened to myself!  Only, that wasn't my fault, of course, that I had ended up being in love with Matt!  Because if it wasn't those Barstards that had played with this poor girls emotions, before Matt had decide to leave!  Which was leaving me all emotional and in tears!  Because of ending up crying so much, over Matt for two and a half years!  Well, I wouldn't have thought I would have fallen head over heels in love for real!  

 And ok!  He may have wanted to go and move on!  But really!  To do what he done, before he had left, to me, by joining in with the rest of those other Barstards from work, by playing with my emotional!  As that was not expectable in my book!  But who at the same time, was having that so-call relationship, with that fat trollop!  Course, it was back then, that he sort of started to hang around her!  But which, it was those from Wackys, that had told me something about Matt!  

 Because what one of them had told me was, "it was all in Matts head, that thinks this girl that he's with, was in a proper relationship!  But who they didn't describe her back then, as that miserable big, fat trollop, like myself may I add!  Course, this was way before those from work had decided to play with my emotions!  As well, as Matts, himself!   But did you know Matts so-call girlfriend, that was an on-off relationship, had also played a big part in this!  As she ended up threatening me!  After wondering into our work to show off their newly-born spog, to Bobby!  But, who after shortly noticing Matt, who also decided to wonder in, showed her true colours to me!  That big, humongous, fat bitch of Matt!  

 Though, I had wondered, what if my friends from Wackys was still around here!  Would they all agree with me!  By seeing her fat body, waddling around the Kingfisher Centre, like she sometimes does?  Or would they not?  But to be frank!  Of what they possibly thought of her, was that they could have easily said how they really thought of her also!  Which who knows, describing her, as a miserable cow!  Like how I've now, describe her now! 

 Only, what I describe his Misses now, is  a huge, humongous, fat trollop!  Course, that's what she really is!  Then a fat person, like some, waddling around the kingfisher Centre half of the time, with her hideous, old hag, of her Dinosaur mum!  Though, don't forget, that was how we had thought, of Matts so-call girlfriend, way back then!  But, also don't forget, the way I'm speaking like this about her, was it was way before they had not only played with my feelings!  As well as, it was when I found out from them, it was an on and off relationship, then, what people see in a real and true relationship!        

 But, just before that huge fat trollop had threaten me at work on that day, I noticed Matt had also wondered into work, as well!  Which while he had, had noticed he was giving me that look, which I wasn't to sure if it was a nice look!  Or simply that look, to say, I really dislike you Sandy!  Which to be perfectly frank, I already knew the guy disliked me!  Went into the back to hide myself, because of how I was feeling for him!  But who, after coming back out from the staff-room door to carry on with my work, at the back, discovered that nasty fat trollop of his so-call girlfriend, true identity!  As I had said!  

 When that humongous, fat trollop of Matts had came waltzing up to me with a pram and said, by looking at me, "I had three phones-call that had wanted to speak to Matt!  But who before asking her was Matt there?  They also mention, that they were also friends of Sandy's!  Meaning, that after saying all this to her, well she told me, "if I ever hear that you've talk to Matt!  "Or ever go near him!  "Not to mention, touch him!  "Well, I will sent the Police onto you!  Which, then she ended up, looking down at their newly-born sex-object!  Saying, "course, look what I've done?"  As, Matt as now got responsibilities!  Which, showed that bloody bitch of his, had now certainly played a dirty game, to trap him down, so she wouldn't allow him out of her sight for good!         

 So, as you know, that humongous Fat-Trollop that Matt as now ended up being married to because of how she had trapped him down all those years ago, even though, it was an all an on-off relationship with her couldn't really miss them even if one tried!  As they looked-like they had a twisted huge face!  Plus, that deformed Fat huge body, that kept going around with him at times!  Which, those that knew Matt, from out of work-like, could seriously, see that wasn't a proper relationship! 

  Who though, later on, had once again had decided to play yet another dirty rotten game, by giving her huge, enormous, fat body, that I can only describe, better known as, The Blob from a very old, but well-known Film, that, that great old Actor, Steve McQueen had starred in, those many years ago, had told the poor bugger, Matt, she was up the dove!  Meaning, of course, fucking pregnant!  And all this was down to thinking, oh! Sandy's after Matt!  

 Which, what a joke!  To think I wanted him!  I mean, even though, how much I love Matt now, I would never thought, for one minute that I wanted Matt for myself!  Why!  Hell no! Course, that wasn't in my nature to say, "oh, Matt I want you for myself!  Course, for one thing, he wasn't a nice guy!  That once again, had imagined in a guy!  As well as knowing that person had only wanted to know the girl for sex!  As I'm not someone that says to herself, "I want you!  Or "I need you!  Like some pathetic, spoilt, selfish brat, that, that Creature from the Bottomless-Pit, or some Creature from The Black Lagoon of Matts girlfriend then, had truly always behaved, when they were around him!   

 *With it's fat twisted miserable-face even if they tried to smile but just couldn't, because of  looking like a miserable old Sag, don't forgetting, the name, The huge, humongous Fat Trollop" as that is what they are more well-known as, around here now.  If one does see, around the Redditch Kingfisher Centre.  Not forgetting, the name of The Blob either, had showed that she truly was the kind that was trying to get what they wanted by tying that a so-call person down, thinking now, that I've done, what I did, well you or anyone else, can't have him, course, look what I've now done, to him?  Hey!  Just look?  My humongous, fat, large, Blob of a body, is now pregnant! 

 Which, for the way, they kept going an on and then off with each other, like I was told, well, whatever that biggest humongous Fat Trollop was having, well, if anyone that had a mind of their own, would also agree, that isn't a human child from a real, true love relationship, but a bloody Sex Object or a Spog!  Course, of the way, they were truly going out together way back then, on but, off!  On then off!  Over and over, for just pure having Sex!  And not like a serious relationship!  

 Course, once again, I didn't even think for one minute, that I wanted Matt for myself!  But, what I do believe is what Karma goes around, will come back to them!  So, even though, it takes two, for a relationship to work out, well, like I was always told then, by those that knew him around, had always said, "it's only Matt, that thinks in his head, it's a relationship."  As well as, mentioning, "course, you can't say it is a relationship," "but, only  sex," "sex!  "And more blooming sex that he's with."  

 Not forgetting, they also, said, "course, would you call a relationship, an on off going-like?"  "Well, would you Sandy?"  Which, like anyone would, if their not so fickle or stupid, like how Matt and his humongous, Fat, bitter twisted Trollop were, back then and who knows, probably still are, until this day onwards, agreed with them, that, "yes!  "That isn't a relationship!  "But, like as you said, must be just for sex, sex and more bloody sex!  As Matt did act like that so much, so, if I was asked, what I would have to say to Matt now, well, it would have to be, "ha! "Bloody ha, ha, to you, Matt wherever you may be!  Course, like I mention, what karma goes around, must have come right back to you, for how Matt had truly hurt me, all those years back.  

Not to mention though, Matt, maybe fickle or stupid, if he hasn't worked this one out, already, course, who may have a serious problem with her, if he knew, what Sandy knew of what his so-call Bimbo of a wife, had seriously done, behind his bloody back, if and only, if they had separated or parted yet again, as usual, before maybe going back to Matt and possibility reconvincing that great big idiot, back then, that her huge Fat Blob of a body is expecting a Filthy Spog!  

 Which, it was in their case, as we all knew!  Course, I very much doubt, that those that wasn't his mates or family, would actually, say, "but, it's not!  It's a human Child!  Though, if they only knew, like how a lot of us did knew, around work then?  As, it was just plainly sick, to even imagine that Matt was truly like that, with his, bitter, yet twisted, deformed, repulsive, blonde Girlfriend, who was that Fat Trollop then, for just having Sex!  Sex!  And more flaming sex, then rather going out with that special someone, in the right way.      

 Anyway, some years back now, while Sandy was just minding their own bloody business, just walking towards W.H SMITHS,  had not only noticed that "humongous, Fat, twisted Trollop" was walking so slowing towards her, wearing dark glasses, not with her hideous, "Ancient," "Prehistoric, old hag, of a "Dinosaur Mother," that's does look bitter and twisted.   if anyone saw them.  Even thinking was she walking with one of "Matts Sex-Objects! Which, she wasn't either!  Why, no!   And she certainly wasn't with Matt, far from it, course what Sandy noticed, was while walking past "W.H SMITHS, seeing her holding hands with some tall, but, lanky guy, that had dark, wavy short hair! 

 Which, all that Sandy could basically, think of at that present time, was, 'you fucking Bitch, you!  Course, if that is you, trying to hide that ugly look of yours, behind those glasses, but who was smirking away, well, how could you, go behind Matts back like this?  "How?  And who Sandy had also, truly thought, "how could you, hurt poor Matt like this?  Course, of ever imagining him, possibly finding out that you could have had a secret affair, before, maybe, going straight back to Matt, like you guys normally acted in the past?  But, just feeling for how Matt would really react two, ever finding that out!  As, he would be distraught, hurt, as well as, possibly feeling dam well, humiliated by how she had truly went behind his bloody back, and just maybe having sex with yet, another, if they had parted then, hurt him, like how he once hurt Sandy!  

Which, even though, Sandy could have been wrong, about in thinking that she was having affair behind Matts back, with this slightly tall, but "skinny-lanky" guy, who did have the same hair colour that Matt had, then, well, let's just say that later on, that "Fat Trollop" of Matts, "Misses," showed up around the Redditch Kingfisher Centre, with yet, another "Sex-Object," but, who what Sandy had kept wondering, was "but, was this One, Matts kid, or Not?  As, Sandy had thought, she wouldn't be at all surprised that it won't Matts Sex-Object," because, of that time of seeing her, walking past "W.H SMITH" as she did, holding handing with somebody else, then Matt!   Course, it certainly looks like she had another child, to maybe, think all over again, it's was mine, if  had happen like!

 Though, as, for myself now, well, let me say, "I'm now enjoying my life, like my dad had wanted me two, before he sadly past away, in 2008.  And which, after thinking to myself, way back then, that after Matt departure from our work, now lost my beloved dad, who not only loved so very much, but, who knew how I truly felt for Matt.  So, the way I was now feeling, was, because of  how I was so close to him, had thought, to herself, 'I've lost another important person in my life now!  Which, was so difficult to cope, course, of feeling that I lost two people that I loved so much now!   

 And even though, I do still very much love Matt, weather he's here or not," "I will always love him, course, my feelings is not like any other that would turn on and then off, as my feelings are genuine, course, my feelings have got more stronger, throughout these fifteen years, for him then ever, not forgetting, "Luke Wilson!  Who, like Matt, do think I could be in love with you also, course, of the way he truly reminds me of Matt!  Maybe, its those dam eyes of his, who like when I used to look deeply into Matt's eyes, would feel like he could definitely hypnotise me, in an instance.  Even when I see "Luke Wilson" unforgettable, mystifying, lovely smile, could knock this girl way out, like Matt also had, those many years back! 

 But, getting back to what if Sandy and Matt would once again, cross paths after all these years or just simply bump into one another!  Well, let me tell you I can't see that from ever happening, course, of how I'm sure he's married to that Creature of the Bottle-less-Pit!  Or, or the Creature from the Black Lagoon!  As well as secondly, after playing a very dirty game, to trap the guy, from living his own life and making his mistakes.  Like having loads of trashy sex-objects from her humongous, fat body by him!  

 Course, I like nice guys, really nice guys, and not someone that just want sex, as well as, someone, that in the past, did act like Dr Jekyll and Mr. Hyde towards only me and no one else, which Matt was like towards me.  Not forgetting, if he had disliked me that much back then when I knew him more, well why, would I want to see Matt, that I will always love now?  Course, I'm certainly not allowing anyone like himself, to hurt my feeling over again, by first of all, giving this girl, a look that could be an angry look, which, was glaring down at me with a very bad moody look!     

 Anyway, it was more when I said, secondly, it was having bloody loads of trashy Sex-Objects from the blob that we call a body!  As that was what they all are, you know, bloody "Sex-Objects," not someone's children course, once again, like I was always told, from those that knew Matt around work, those many years ago.  But I'm not talking of those "measly, freaking Barstards," that was so friendly with Matt from work, why, no!  It was those that simply knew him-like, outer side from work, that always said to yours truly, at times, "hey, Sandy, would you call, someone that's in a relationship, if they were always going out with them, an on and of?"  As well, as telling me, "as it's only Matt, that really believes that he's in a relationship with them," "no one else, does." 

 So, anyway, if anyone stumble upon a truly, humongous, Fat but very twisted Trollop going around the Kingfisher area, in the Redditch Town Centre, then, you've not unfortunately, seen Matt's wife, but, whose sometimes, just sometimes is seen around with either, one of their sex-objects or SPOGS whatever, you want to look at it!  Or just sometimes, the hideous creature or The Creature from the Black Lagoon goes around with, the mother, whose a very ugly, wrinkly, decrepit old hag, that truly looks more and more like a hideous Dinosaur, then anything else!  And yes!  That's right!     

 But, whose Mother, is most definitely looked so alike a very hideous, Prehistoric, Decrepit, old Ancient, Dinosaur, that as you know, were around, those millions of billions years ago!  But, who frankly, should have been bombed by one of those Asteroid, like it had, with all the rest of them, that got extinct back then, by the Asteroids!  Then, rather Asteroid missing the dam, decrepit old hag, of a "Dinosaur," as it did!     

 Which, I feel sorry for those, if any that does come across a "Prehistoric, Old Hag," that I could even describe that last ever "Dinosaur" is bitter, twisted and deformed if you saw the hideous Mother, of  "the Fat, humongous Trollop" going at times, into "The Muffin Break" Coffee Shop in the Redditch, Kingfisher Centre with either Matts "Fat Trollop," of a wife, or going in with maybe, one or two of their dirty "Sex-bloody Objects!    

 Not forgetting, though, at times, that very Old, Decrepit, Ancient, "Dinosuaur" of that "Fat Trollop" that should have been Shot long ago, as well, as bombed, as I just mentioned just sometimes goes into "Muffin Break" on their own trying to sit down where no one else, could probably try and see them, closer to "Next" clothes shop, at the far, far back of "Muffin Break."   But unfortunately, for everyone of their customers, can't hide their hideous, twisted, deformed plus, their revolting small body, as it's turned out, with short yellowish hair and a face, that by-god, if anyone does see them, wants to really puke!  And I certainly do mean, Puke!  Even when that "Dinosaur" try's to put smile to anyone around!  

 Why!  I wouldn't even be at all surprised, that, that miserable "Dinosaur" could be flaming linked to "Nessie," "The Loch Ness Monster," that only rather appears from the loch in Scotland, that's if it existed or not!  But if it does, well the Mother of that "humorous fat Trollop" that she's well-known around more in Redditch, really could be related to "Nessie."  Again, the "Prehistoric Monster!  

 Though, getting back of meeting Matt, after all these years, well, it wouldn't be just so strange!  But as I'm more realistic, can't ever see that from ever happening, only imaging it, if we had, like, 'what if?  'Just, what if we did?  But, there again, "would I want to, or not?  Course, now, I'm a dreamer, yes, a real dreamer, not someone who's so bloody desperate, for looking for a guy, because, as I'm a total, old fashion, romantic person, that believes that true love, takes a hell of a long time to start between two people who may love each other.  Then rather just meeting anyone, then either start going out with them or having sex, which I'm not like that at all!     

 There again, if I did bump into Matt, after all these years, well, really I don't know what would truly happen?  Only, maybe guess that the guy hasn't probably changed, course of knowing how Matt disliked me, way back then.   And not to mention, he had joined in with the rest of those measly Barstards from work, to play upon my feeling over him, so all those hopes and dreams, that I once had of dreaming, as now all been shattered!  

 As I can't believe in that phrase, there's always someone out there!  Or that, I will meet someone nice, because of how I truly feel for Matt deeply!  So, instead, now I just think to myself, oh!  If only, I can meet, Luke Wilson, in person?  If only?  Then, rather, imagining seeing Matt again, course, with Luke, well, first of all, the Actor, just wouldn't know of why I truly love him so much!  

 *And secondly, with Luke Wilson well, I know I wouldn't run away from him, like how I did when noticing Matt was around!  Because of how I was truly feeling, when he just couldn't help himself, by knocking this girl down, by allowing me to just gaze into those deepest, darkest brown eyes of his, whenever he was always around.  Not forgetting, his lovely and sexy smile, And oh boy!  Could Matt certainly hypnotise me on the spot, but who I always ended up blushing right in front of him.  Which to be perfectly frank, was bloody worth it, if I have to admit it to myself!

 But, for watching any of Luke Wilsons Films, especially, The Family Stone, which I love more, had always somehow, reminded me, of looking straight into Matts, adorable big brown eyes!  So, Matt, wherever you are, thanks, for allowing this girl to not just have those feelings, that I did, but who I still do for you, course, I'm not like anyone you had met then!  But, who, whenever I would see any of those Luke Wilson, DVD's especially, that film, The Family Stone, could now truly imagine that I've got that very same feelings, as I do for Matt!  

 As, I truly believed back then, that after Matt had sadly left our work and then, shortly after, coming across to the very first DVD of Luke Wilson well, I not only felt that was so bloody uncanny, of how I did come cross this Actor, right there and then.  But who thought, it was like a sign for yours truly to say, "well, Sandy, maybe you should start to dream of loving this Actor!  Because of whom he truly resembles me of!  So, again Matt!  Wherever you maybe now, my brown eyes, thanks darling!  Just thanks, for just allowing this girl to now be hopeless in love, with not only one person, but two!  "Which of course, is you Matt and that Actor, Luke Wilson!  Only, this girl feels like she will only love the one forever!  And that's you Matt!  So, Matt!  I am truly in love with you!  "Really I am!  "I love you!  "I love  you!  "And I love you! x x x x        



   

 

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