THE FIRST TIME MATT ACTED LIKE MR. HYDE!
FROM "DR JYKLE AND MR HYD,"
Though, that wasn’t the first time Matt had truly acted hastily towards me, because the first time that I can ever remember, was shortly after he and that bloody cow aka big Liz was when they started to work for us. Or should that be slightly before, their first Christmas with us. Which I think was around October or November of 2005. There again, it could have been in the year of 2006, that Matt had decided to be absolutely horid to me on that day, by saying over and over, “oh, I love blondes, I do" "and pretty ones.”
Which, after he turn to me, he more then less ended up saying, “well, you don’t think I was talking about you, did you?" Which, to be perfectly frank, honest didn’t know of why he was saying all that to me, course, firstly, of being a brunette. Then secondly, how I already knew full well that Matt had liked blondes in the first place. Because as it was coming up to Christmas, most of the other staff had really wanted to know of how we were going to celebrate our Christmas!
So, after suggesting of having a Christmas party, including a meal, well after Matt had popped out of his way to get a menu for us, he not only came wondering back, by first, throwing, what looked-like a white Sports Band towards me. Course, earlier that day I told Deek that I didn't feel quite like a member of the Staff. Which besides himself, Matt had only really brought one other Sports Band for myself! Which, till this day on has still treasure it, course it was from him personally! Sounds silly, but, really that's what I've did, I had kept that White Sports Band in a safe place, because truly, it was from Matt!
Anyway, getting back to eventually asking each of us to come in the back to tell him of
what we wanted from the menu, well when it came to my turn of going into the staff-room with him. Well before getting interrupted by one of the Christmas temps, Mia, who I saw peeping through the door thought, I heard Matt say something so nice to me. But
Butagain sadly as I looked up, suddenly saw that it wasn’t me that Matt was saying all those nice things, but to Mia!
And yes! That was when I found out Matt must have really liked blondes and pretty ones, because Mia was not only blonde, but who was pretty as well! But getting back to what Matt had said all those things to me, shortly after seeing everyone about what they wanted. Because whether he knew it or not, even though I knew it, there was still no need for him to be that nasty!
Especially, when he ended up by saying, “well you didn’t think I was talking about you?" "Did you?" "Hey! Though, the only thing was, whenever Matt was always like this to me, well no matter how he was, I still couldn’t fight back. Or even have a right go at him, like I probably would have, if it was anyone else, from work! Which, I know I should have done, but really at the time, couldn’t when it came to Matt.
Because whenever I saw him around, well it was like Matt had always seemed to have done something to this girl, even though at times, Matt was mostly swearing to my face, by just saying, "fuck off," over and over again, plus that angry look in his eyes! As if to say, "I can't stand you! Making me feel though, why couldn't I do a dam thing right with you Matt! And yes! At times, I did thought, why is that bloody idiot, treating me in this way, just why? And why only me?
Course, of imaging, what would it have been liked if you had acted like a nicer person towards me, then you are? As for imagining now, well, would I want to meet Matt yet again, after all these years, if someone asked me? Well, would I? The answer to that is, "I don’t know! Course, of how he acted most of the times towards me, aka Sandy, way back then, like acting more like Mr Hyde then, rather such a nice guy, as I once thought he was, but who was only nicer to the others!
So, my answer again to that is, "there is no way, I could not see that from happening! "Just no way! Course, of knowing how Matt was, with only me! Only, my god! Was I so bad, to get along with? Course, I've always got along with guys, then girls, in my past, even way before Matt wondered into my work, I always seemed to get along with them! So, it must have been Matt, either dislike me or hate me! That total Barstard!
So, even though I had thought I knew of why I couldn’t, is that I felt I couldn't do anything right when it came to Matt. But there again, this was only that I was trying not to admit it to myself that the truth behind of it was, deep down it was my feelings for him! Oh yes! It was differently my feelings, alright! As, there was just something about Matt now, that I honestly felt I loved! And yes! It was probably from the moment I first clapped eyes on him, leaning against that big table, with his arms folded and looking like he was in a little world of his own, near to the entrance of our shop. As I wondered in that day, thinking to myself why, he looks-like he was slightly shy! Which, oh boy! All that had came to my mind was, a huge Aww!
Because it was for every time that I saw Matt smiling at me, that while he may have thought, I wasn’t trying to look at him! Well boy! Did I? Course, of not wanting to admit it, had left this girl thinking, secretly, to herself, oh, Matt! Matt! Matt! If only you would embrace me so! Because, it was the way he simply made this girl feel at times, whenever I saw that smile. But that didn't stop me of dreaming of that. No! As I really imagined, what if you really would take me in your arms, as I would really don’t think I would ever want to let you go!
Though, whether it was good times or bad, whenever it came to Matt, I had always thought the world of him! Even though, I knew he didn’t like me, I meant every word, of what I thought of him! And if that meant telling myself that I do dream of him, of wondering what if only Matt could just take me in his arms and whisper sweet nothings, in my ear. Not forgetting, imagining, embracing me! Which, vice a versa.
But also dreaming, I wouldn't be at all surprised that this girl, would even dare herself to give this guy a real kiss on his tender red lips, then his cheek. Which, sounds silly, but course, I've never been kiss romantically by anyone. As, it was only him, that I always dreamt of doing that to! And no one else! Oh yes! It was only Matt! But course, Matt had showed his true colours back then, well, this girl was not like some girls those days. Which who just wanted to know a guy, for just sex!
Anyway, once again there was another time that Matt had acted so ghastly to me, while Deek was off. And as usual, it was mostly when that snobby-nose bitch, or cow, aka big Liz was always there! Who really, by the way, I speak of her, couldn't stand the sight of her! Because, she had so reminded me of one those awful snobby kids, while I was still at school, that thought, they were really better then the rest!
So, whenever they were hanging around together, doing something, well it had always seemed they had pretty much wanted to make my day so miserable. By picking on me until, they both thought, that they had enough! So, while they were always working together-like, well they were more acting like bullies! unfortunately, this time they had seemed to be playing with my emotions so I wouldn’t know whether I was coming or going!