THE FIRST TIME MATT ACTED LIKE HYDE!
FROM "DR JYKLE AND MR HYDE,"
Though, that wasn’t the first time Matt had truly acted hastily towards me, because the first time that I can remember, was shortly after he and that bloody "cow" aka big Liz was when they started to work for us. Or should that be slightly before, their first Christmas with us, which I think was around October or November of 2005. There again, it could have been in the year of 2006, that Matt had decided to be absolutely horrible to me on this day, by saying over and over, “oh, I love blondes, I do" "and pretty ones.”
Which, after turning to me, ended up saying, “well, you don’t think I was talking about you, did you?" Which, to be perfectly frank, honest didn’t know of why he was saying this to me course, of firstly, being a brunette. And secondly, how I already knew full well that he liked blondes because, as it was coming up to Christmas, most of the other staff had really wanted to know of how we were going to celebrate our Christmas!
So, after suggesting of having a Christmas party, including a meal afterwards, well after Matt had gone out of his way to get a menu for us all, he not only came wondering back, by first, throwing, what looked-like a white Sports Band towards me, course of earlier that day I told Deek that I didn't feel quite like a member of the Staff. Which besides himself, Matt had only really brought one for myself, which till this day has still treasure it, course it was from him personally! Which sound silly of doing, but, really that's what I've done, I have actually still got it, in a safe place, because it was from Matt!
Anyway, getting back to eventually asking each of us to come in the back to tell him of what we wanted from the menu that Christmas? Which, when it came to my turn had suddenly thought, did I hear right! Because basically, what I thought I heard was Matt saying something really nice to me even though I didn’t quite catch it, because it was just a bit to quiet for me to really hear his very nice voice properly.
Especially, when he ended up by saying, “well you didn’t think I was talking about you?" "Did you?" "Hey! Though, the only thing was, whenever Matt was always like this to me, well no matter how he was, I still couldn’t fight back. Or even have a right go at him, like I probably would have, if it was anyone else, from work!
* Which, I know I should have done, but really at the time, couldn’t when it came to Matt, because whenever I saw him around, well it was like Matt had always seemed to have done something to this girl, even though at times, the guy was mostly swearing to my face, with that angry look in his eyes, as if to also, say, "I can't stand you! Making me feel though, why couldn't I do a dam thing right with Matt! And yes! At times, I did thought, 'why is that bloody idiot, treating me in this way, just why? And why only me?
Course, of imaging, what would have been like if Matt had acted like a nicer person towards me, then he really was? As for imagining now, "well, would I want to meet Matt yet again, after all these years, if someone asked me? Well, would I? The answer to that is, "I don’t know! Course, of how he acted most of the times towards me, "Sandy," way back then, like acting more like "Hyde" then, rather such a nice guy, as I once thought he was, but who was only nicer to the others.
So, my answer again to that is, "there is no way, I could not see that from happening! "Just no way! Course, of knowing Matt wasn't a nice guy with only me! Only, "my god! "Was I so bad, to get along with? "Course, I've always got along with guys, then girls, in my past, even way before Matt wondered into my work, I always seemed to get along with them! So, it must have been Matt, either dislike me or hate me!
So, even though I probably knew of why I couldn’t is that I felt I couldn't do anything right when it came to Matt. But there again, I was trying not to admit to myself that the truth behind of it was, deep down it was my feelings for him! "Oh yes! It was differently my feelings, alright! As, there was just something about this guy now, that I honestly felt I loved. And yes! It was probably from the moment I first clapped eyes on him, leaning against that big table, with his arms folded and looking like he was in a little world of his own, near the entrance to the shop, as I wondered in that day. As well as, thinking to myself why, he even looked-like he was slightly shy! Which, 'oh boy! All did I thought of was, "Aww! Doesn't he seemed really nice.
Because it was every time I saw him smiling away, or at times just seeing him trying to look at me while he may have thought, I wasn’t trying to look at him. Which I’ve got to admit, always left this girl thinking, secretly, to herself, 'oh, Matt! 'Matt! 'Matt! 'If only you would embrace me so! Because, it was the way he simply made this girl feel at times, whenever I saw that smile. But that didn't stop me of dreaming of that. No! As I really imagined, 'what if you really would take me in your arms, course, then, I would really don’t think I would ever want to let you go! And it would only be you, that I wouldn't want to let go!
Though, whether it was good times or bad, whenever it came to Matt, that I had always thought the world of and meant every word of it! Even though, I knew he didn’t like me, I meant every word, of what I thought of him! And if that meant telling that I do dream of myself, at times, of wondering "what if only you Matt could just take me in your arms, and whisper a few words in my ear, not forgetting, that is, imagining you embracing me! Which, vice a versa.
But also dreaming, I wouldn't be at all surprised that this girl, would even dare herself to give this guy a real kiss on his lips, then his cheek. Which, sounds silly, but course, I've never been kiss romantically by anyone or would want two, romantically it was only him, that I always dreamt of doing that two! And no one else! "Oh yes! "It was only Matt! But course, Matt had showed his true colours back then, well, this girl was no Tart and wouldn't want to know someone that just want to keep going around for sex!
Anyway, again, there was another time that Matt had to be horrible to me while Deek was off and as usual, that big Liz was there like always, that "snobby-nose bitch," or "Cow! Who really, by the way I speak of her, couldn't stand the sight of her. Because of every time whenever them two were hanging around together-like, doing something, well it seemed that they wanted to make sure that I would be as miserable as I can be, by picking on me until, they both thought that I had enough! Only, this time they had seemed to be playing with my emotions so I wouldn’t know whether I was coming or going!