I COULD HAVE REALLY NEEDED MATT
TO BE CHEERED UP!
Now, just let me tell yeah all what happened around this time! Because what happened was, on the very same year that my dad had sadly died, and was coming up to the first Christmas of not having my dad around! But who the family-like had heard some disturbing news! News, that as a small child had the most biggest crush-like that you wouldn't believe over him! Because, who I so loved as a little girl had also died, which I won't say how for good reason! But yes! He also, had sadly died on the very same year, though, that my dad had died!
Which was once again in the year, 2008! I thought, to myself then, boy! If only my darling, Matt was around? As, I think I needed to be cheered up! Only, no sooner then I had thought that Deek who was only visiting, told me, “stop, stoking Matt! Which to be frank, wouldn’t dream of doing, in a million years! Made me thought, well why did he thought I would do that! As well as, how on earth did he knew I was trying to only cheer myself up by going nearer to Matts work, so if it was possible to see if Matt was there!
But who then, decided to stand over with his arm leaning against one side of the desk talking to his colleague, while at the same time, had occasionally had kept glancing over to where I was sitting again, in that coffee shop! Which, of course was like I tried to example! So, really it was Matt, that had kept looking straight at me then not the other way round! As I’m sure he had made it out to be to Deek when he must have meant, by saying to me, “stop stoking Matt!
As well as, you must have known the other reason, of why I couldn’t continue in writing, while I was in that small coffee shop that was opposite to Matts work again! Because of the way Matt had kept glancing over to my direction! And probably even more so after I saw him leaning against that very same desktop, the way he had before! Talking to one of his colleagues, because occasionally of him glancing over to me with that knock-out smile!
And yet, even though, he wasn't trying two, had looked-like he made out to me he probably wanted two! Because of each time I tried saying, “hello,” to him, well Matt just wouldn’t look up at me! For instead, he looked as if he was looking up in another direction! But who then, gave me the indication that he so wanted two, by the expression that he was giving me! As I saw him not only trying not to look, but who was smiling!
Which, I did actually think well why, aren’t you looking at me Matt? “Hey! Just tell me that! Why? I mean I did say hello, to you! But as I thought of this, had suddenly remembered that incident of when Bobby had came dashing into work that day, from her break, shouting out loud that news about Matt, from her tiny-little-twisted gob, to Cilla! Because of whom she had then, nastily turned around, to face me by suddenly, opening that decrepit gob of hers, to say, "well, have you got a problem, with that Sandy?" Which, all I truly wanted to do right there and then, was give her a right left hook, on her pale, thinness, pointed face!!!