Wednesday, 5 January 2000

Playing Games - Chapter 4


Chapter 4


                          WHAT IS MATT DOING WITH BOTH HIS LEGS UP?

                                        AND PUTTING BOTH HIS ARMS AT 

                                       THE BACK OF HIS HEAD SMILING?                                                          


 Not forgetting, there was even a time while I was working that he called me in the back for something, well that’s what I thought, because after wondering in the back, I not only saw Matt was sitting down in the staff room, but sitting down with both of legs right up onto the other chair, smiling away to me, which, always got to me in the nicest possible way!   Because, at first, it did make me feel like he was trying to indicate something else, which I could have been wrong to think of!  

 But, really!  It was the way he was making me truly feel, as I walked into the staff-room, seeing him with both arms stretched out at the back of his head, like he was relaxing-like, not forgetting, that while he was smiling away, as he did, he made out, to me, if you want to sit down, well sit on my lap, because of how he had both of his legs onto the other chair! 

 And secondly, it was really how he had also made this girl go completely shy at the same time because I was really starting to feel like blushing in front of him!  Which cause of this, had really made it so awkward for me to stick around near to him!  Only, as I wasn't thinking straight, I suddenly dashed straight out from the staff-room, before I thought of that, I might really blush even more so then I had already.  But no sooner after I dash out from the staff room then I heard Matt starting to laugh a little to himself, which, I felt like I was going to blush a little more, then I had ever before!

 Although, what I mustn’t forget, was while I thought I had, all those feelings for him, had now sadly started to react differently towards me, like he was turning into that "Mr Hyde," who as you know, from the character, in the "Novels" or "Films" that they were a horrible piece of work, to everyone that would come across them.  Only being Matt, well, it was only towards myself that he would behave in such away then he was with anyone else, from work.  

 Maybe, it was, those other Barstards, from work had decided to play with my emotions, so I wouldn’t know whether I was coming or going, of how I was now starting to feel around Matt!  Which, I’ve got to say, was so horrible for really anyone to do to that someone, like myself!  But, Matt didn't help either, which if it won't for my feelings for him, well, I would also, call the guy, a flaming "Barstard" like the rest of them! 

 Especially, as I was sure that they must have known somehow that I was not being my usual self around them now, but my old and true self, which was being really shy whenever it came to Matt was around me.  The only thing was, I had no idea of why Matt was being like this towards me and only me,  may I add!  Because, one minute you would see him acting all nice, by making this girl laugh, by acting all silly-like.  Then, the next his behaviour would suddenly change, like someone that I wouldn’t want to be around or even maybe, not knowing, them, at all.  As, that's how horrible he was.   

 Which, most of those times was actually while he was in changed and working along side that bloody, "snobby-bitch" big Liz, as she was known to us, but which I thought was entitled to think of a few more names for her, because of how she had always made me felt while she was with Matt!  But there was another reason of why I didn’t really want to be around if I knew Matt was going to be in charge with her, like they sometimes had!  Which, I really never liked about, because whenever they would work together at times well they would always reminded me of all those awful bad times that I had of being badly bullied by those nasty bullies from schools those many, many years ago.



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