WE ALL ENDED UP GOING BOWLING!
BUT WHO DIDN'T PLAY
ONLY, IT WAS THE ONLY, CHANCE FOR SANDY
Now, before I’ll tell you what happened on this event, well let me just remind you it was all because of how they had most of the time treated me, as well as, how you know how they were all playing with my feelings for sure! Because what happened was, as another Christmas was approaching most of the guys had decided that they had wanted to do something complete different, then rather going for a Christmas meal, like going bowling. Only, even though how much I had loved bowling, well because of how they had all been treating me which as you know had always ended up so miserable, had decided, I’m not going with them!
So, after telling Deek, “I don’t think I’ll be going,” or it could have been, Deek told him "do you mind so much, if I just don’t go to this bowling that you lot are going?" But no sooner then I had, that it looked like Deek had seemed that he wanted me to go. Because, all he could say at that moment, was, please rethink your decision of not going Sandy." Then, by adding, “it’s because Matt had wanted you to go.” "Because, when Matt found out that you weren’t, well can’t you see that he’s been looking so miserable in himself."
Which, when I had, must admit Matt did look so down then upset with this news of mine. Why, he even wouldn’t stop asking me of why don’t you want to go bowling with us Sandy?" But what I found out then, before he had kept asking me over and over of "are you coming with us or not?" Was, Matt had already decided that I was in his team for playing bowling. And this was even without asking me.
But, even though, I did change my mind more than once, I did eventually say "I will go with you guys," which, when Matt had finally heard that I was going with them, well couldn’t help but smiling away, like a Cheshire-Cat would, from "Alice In Wonderland," but, not as stupid as that, as Matt, was just giving me one of his lovely smiles. But still, something was niggling in the back of my mind, of telling myself, should I really go or not? Because of shortly after that, I kept hearing that how they were all travelling together-like, which made me feel a little unsure as well as uncomfortable, because of thinking, was we all going are own way, to Rubery? Because, if so, then I believed that I had to make my own way there by getting a taxi, so sadly, once again, I thought, well if that’s the case, I won’t go!
Only, while Deek just came wondering into the back, at that precise moment and who I was just about to go out from the back door, asked Deek nicely, "if he could possibly try to explain to Matt of why I was not going with them now," as well as asking him, "if he wouldn’t mind so much in giving this card back to Matt?" Because of really knowing full well, that Matt didn’t want to accept it, when I tried to give the card to him. But no sooner then I had handed Deek this card, that a tear did reappeared upon my face and slowly ran down it, which I think Deek had realised then, that Matt must have upset me, only he couldn't ask me, as I went out before he could say anything else, to me. But as I was leaving, one of the Christmas staff that was nearby had noticed I was crying a little more, as I couldn’t hold back no more when I reached the entrance to our shop.
Only, what I thought was so odd, was just shortly after I left them all and went straight over to see my friends over to Wacky’s so I could try to cheer myself up, well who should be walking in? But Deek! Though, as he did, even though he made out that he was there to see Lynette about something couldn’t help from wondering, wondering because it was the way he spoke to me after seeing me said, “well you can talk! Then, ending up saying, “Matt wants to see you?" Which, once again made me wonder, but why? Especially, as he just told me, “why don’t you grow-up,” not forgetting, how he threw my card right back at me, when I tried to give it to him.
Anyway, while I was waiting for them all to finish up in the staff-room, something that seemed weird, but which, I can’t really explain either, since I couldn’t work out to what was going on around me was happening. As, it started when Leah had first walked into the back and gave me a look, while smiling at me in away that I would have to say not just myself but who, if I think anyone would see her going past that staff-room door, would not just once, but twice, without fetching anything, wonder to themselves, what were they up to? Because, that’s what Leah had kept on doing, while I was waiting away, in the staff-room, for them.
Then, just shortly after seeing Leah going in and out from the back, still without getting anything may I add, who should I see coming wondering in the back? But first, Deek and then, Matt which when Deek saw me in the staff-room looking at a magazine gave me a smile. But as I thought, were they probably both heading to do something else, had both walked straight into the staff-room also, where I was. Only, after I suddenly saw them coming in, first Deek who for some reason had just stopped at the door allowing Matt to past by him, but which once again, made me wonder what this time? Had also, started to think, 'what’s going on? Because, as it was the way, Deek was standing doing absolutely nothing, only, smiling at me, while Matt on the other hand, went to just sit down behind me, continuing to look at me, while I was trying to look at this magazine.
Then, what happened next was just before Matt and Ben was leaving to get themselves ready for this bowling, had heard my name more than once, from afar, which as I turned around slightly noticed it was Matt waving to me with the most huge smile upon his on face, while Ben, on the other hand tried to tell him, “we better be going Matt.” Which if you ask me, didn’t seem to be paying any attention to Ben, but more to me! Because it was just the way he gave me that certain look with that smile that could have made me thought, “is Matt paying more attention to me? As, he didn’t seem to be wanting to hear anything what Ben was trying to say, while I had notice him outside the window of our shop.
Though, after arriving at the bowling-ally, we all thought that since we got there a few minutes earlier, of why don’t we all go to the bar and get ourselves a drink? So, that’s what we did! Only, when it was time for us to go and play, well that’s when disaster had strike, because just before we could all play, which I’ve say was looking forward two, two Security Guards came walking towards us all, which shortly after seeing Deek talking to them to find out what was the problem, had also, saw both Matt and Ben approaching him. Only, from where I was, all that I could see but not heard, was Deek had looked like he was getting so angry with them, as well as Matt and Ben.
So, while we were both sitting down near to each other, waiting for the other two taxis that Deek called for, had saw both Pete and Leah coming closer to us, then, who looked like they were embracing each other romantically-like, as if they came so close to kissing. Which I just couldn’t help but wondering to myself, first, Aww! How romantic, but who then, thought to myself, by looking at Matt, ‘oh! ‘Matt, if only you could maybe thought of that to? Course, just seeing how both Pete and Leah were really embracing-like, like they were in love which, I'm sure they weren't, well the way I was truly feeling for Matt now, while looking at him at this moment especially, after he had kept apologising to only myself for what he thought was his fault, just couldn’t help of dreaming away, of why couldn’t you Matt be like that right now, towards me?
Because of how I may not have another chance in not only being so very close to you as I am now, but who I may surprise not just yourself, but myself also, by doing something I’ve never would have thought of doing! Which bring me to what I did then, because while seeing him still so very upset about what happened, well after I kept telling Matt, “oh! “Please Matt, don’t upset yourself like this?" “As it’s not your fault! I then, without thinking, ruffled his hair just slightly, as trying to place my arm around him, so I could comfort him even more. Can’t remember in doing that, even though I could have, which was a sad shame.
Maybe, it’s because shortly after I kept trying, to tell Matt to, “please don’t upset yourself, like this.” While adding, “it’s not your fault! Not forgetting, of how I ruffled his hair but whom after I had, turned nasty on me, by really starting to swear over and over again, like as if he was even angry at me now. Which again, was why I truly referred Matt, to the name of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde. As for myself, well, no sooner that he had kept on swearing to me as well as, told me to, "just go away," so nastily, that I ended up walking away, as far as I could, from him, mainly because no matter how I tried, the guy had really now, pushed his luck, by still continuing to swear at me. Which I must confess, really had hurt me so, only the way I walked off, as I had, near in tears, well most of the others could see that Matt had truly upset me, even more so, both Deek and Ben could see this, as I had my head down to hide these tears while going further and further from them.
Because as you know, the last time I did kiss someone, was Matt, but it wasn't intentionally, like, or romantic-wise that I had, gave him a kiss upon his soft cheek. As, I was sort of trick into doing it by little Liz more then, Fiona who had worked with us at the time. Which I did think, was embarrassing because of what I told you that I’ve never kiss anyone in my entire life before. Though, what was so funny, was when we all finally got back to Town well what caught my eye was first, when the guys, all got out of their taxi well, who should be looking straight at me? But, Matt! But with his gorgeous deep brown eyes staring directly at me, couldn’t help for gazing into his eyes. Only, while we were gazing at each other Deek noticed something was going on between us both, by the way he saw us both looking at each of us with a smile. A shy smile that is.