Wednesday, 5 January 2000

Playing Games - Chapter 18


   Chapter 18


                                                               THE TIME

                                   WHEN SANDY HAD BROUGHT MATT 

                                                                A BOX OF ROSES!

 Then of course, there was the time when Ben had popped over to ask Matt, "you would mind doing a small favour?  "Which if you weren’t to busy of popping round to my work and give me a helping hand?"  So, after going straight up to Deek to ask him "would it be alright for me to go and help Ben out later?"  Deek replied, “well ok!  "But if only if we’re not so busy this afternoon Matt.”

 So after Ben left and Matt then gone back to his work, well shortly after Matt had come up to me, he asked, “hey!  "Sandy do you mind, in getting me a box of chocolates?"  “Possibly, some box of Roses, as its Roses I love."  As he continued to say, “because, right now I could just fancy some chocolates.”  Only, as I didn’t know if he meant this or not, well, being someone that had liked a joke with, every now and again, didn’t know if I should really go out of my way to get Matt some Roses, later. 

 *Now, it was only around this time that Matt and myself had kind of got on, like the rest, until, that is, I noticed once again, his behaviour or mood swings, had kept on changing around me and only me my I add, while he was around the others, which I could only describe him like, "Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde." Because of one minute, Matt was acting oh, so nice to me, then all of a sudden, the guy would turn horrible towards me.  And even more so, when Deek was always having his days off, but who was also, working along side, his old best friend, Big Liz, that snobby cow as some can see by looking at her. 

 Or that Bitch, as well as, she could have easily fallen under, the name of The Witch, that does look like she had a nose, that goes slight up!  As, I'm probably even sure that she was even someone, that knew everything, while she was there.  That, flaming Miss two-goody two Shoes, that at times, thought, to myself, how I truly wanted so much to slap that bloody scrawny, ugly face of hers.  Or even better still, really felt like giving that bloody, "Cow" aka big Liz, a good left hook across her repulsive, vile looking face!   

 Because, partly it was the way they really were to me, as for my feelings, whenever the guy was around me well, that didn’t really exactly start after that certain day, which like I said in that one chapters of mine.  When both myself and Matt had this one day off, but which, I came in first, to just try and leave a Birthday present for him, with a two other girls, that also worked with us, but who at the same time, had also, fell in their trap by ending up giving a Matt a gentle kiss upon his soft skin, that I felt something was definitely so different of how I was going to feel for Matt now.  But, which, everyone around work didn't help, course way back then, they had always loved to stick together, by playing upon my feelings, so that I couldn't have known, one way, or the other of how I was going to feel for Matt. 

 And that was ending up falling in love with with someone, for the very first time of my life with the real guy, then, rather someone on the TV.  Either way, when they decided to be like this, this was really to see how flaming far that they all could possibly go, to see what they were doing to me, would work or not.  For seeing how I was acting, they must have known they had.  Those utter and total Bastards as they all were!  But, saying that, of what I thought of them, just couldn't say anything nasty about Matt, because, way back then, I wasn't just simply a very shy person, when it only involve  Matt.  But, who, at the same time, was very venerable, that they all decided together, to play with my emotions.   That, on that very same night of after giving him a gentle kiss upon his sort cheek, that whether I was popular asleep or not, or just trying to make myself comfortable in my bed, that I felt something very, very strange going cross from the back of my neck.  And that’s no mistake.  

 Only, just don't ask me of what I truly thought about it either, because to anyone, well they  would probably say that sounds daft.  But, really, being an old fashion time romantic, as I am yet, who had never in my life-time had that sort of feelings for anyone, felt could this be a Cupid, brushing pass, at the back of neck to probably tell me "it’s now, your time Sandy," As, in definitely trying to say, it's your time, for sure, that you shall meet your true soul mate? Or the One!  And I certainly do mean, of talking about falling heads over heels in love with somebody so real, then, of continuing to like some Actor as I had done in my past life-time, from the TV, because of being so very, very shy.   But, saying all that, well, could never see myself with anyone.  Because, if it did, which I still have my doubts now, would certainly surprise me for sure.    

 Anyway, going back to what I was saying on that day, when Matt had gone out to help his mate, Ben in his work which was only next door from ours, well, as it was coming up to my end of my shift asked Deek and Laura, "whether you guys, reckon I should really get Matt some chocolates?"  And what both had said was, “yes."  “Why not,” which after getting a small box of Roses which Matt had requested, nipped around to Ben’s work, but which I must admit, still wasn’t so sure of whether I was doing the right thing or not.  No matter what both Deek and Laura had said, I still didn’t know of why, I was to doing this. 

 So, after going in, thinking to myself that the guys could have been around in the back working, discovered that as I was approaching the till, Ben, who was the Manager and who at first, when he saw me, smiled then, without further a do shouted, “Matt, hey! “Matt, your Mrs is here."  Which, could say had made me blush so, because what had made Ben persisted to say something like that!  Which after seeing Matt coming out from around the back and then sitting himself down to just do something he then first asked, “what are you doing here?  So, after saying, “I brought you a box of Roses Matt because that’s what you said you had liked,” Matt smiled at me followed by a big “Aww!  “Thanks Sandy."  

 Then, just before I went, one of his other mates that worked there had came wondering out from out of no way probably from the back, thought, was Matt going to introduce me to him as this is Sandy, from the shop next door instead which could say had took me by complete surprise had said, “this is Sandy, my second girlfriend."  Which, what he meant, by that, I just do not know, only, that he had definitely said that to his mate that had also, came out from the back with Matt.  Because, I truly slightly heard Matt say, “this is Sandy, my second girlfriend,” when he approached me, with a smile by also, adding, beforehand, "what are you doing here Sandy?"   Which was when, I showed him the box of Roses that I brought for him, that his other mate had came wondering around from the back. 

But still, which I found a little to strange, because I really wanted to know why did Matt just suddenly come out of saying that?  As I’ve never been called, anyone’s girlfriend.  Not forgetting, that whoever had said that to Matt, before, leaving, that I was so sure that I had heard a voice saying quietly, to Matt, “she’s beautiful."  Which, just for of hearing that, also, made me go all slightly bashful, as in shy, because if they were referring to me, as beautiful, well, all I can say is, they must been blind as fucking a bat, because I’ve never been called that.   Though, after going out of that shop, well, that was different, course, something couldn’t help myself from smiling away, from what just happened while I was in there, for more to do with thinking it was more to do with what Matt was saying when I really had thought at first, was he only going to introduce me to his mate as, “this is Sandy, from next door,” then rather what he just said, “this is Sandy, my second girlfriend," to his mate. 

But instead of going straight home afterwards as it was getting late, I decided at first to make my way back to tell Deek of what just happened, as I still didn’t really understand or couldn't believe what Matt had said to his other mate, while I was in there.  For all I do know was the guys could have wanted a good laugh, over my expense to probably make me think they honestly meant, it, which seriously, couldn’t see that any of them have had meant what they had all said.  Especially, Matt for what did he really mean, by saying, “this is Sandy, my second girlfriend.

 Anyway, while telling Deek of what just went on over there, of what Matt said, well both Deek and Laura had gave me a huge grin making me to wonder, if they could have possibly knew something already that I didn’t?  Well could they?  As I thought to myself, because as I just said, it ,wasn’t the smile from them both, but more of the way they were looking at me, while I was telling them of this. So as soon as I left them, from work, still thinking, I’m not ready to go home just yet, instead, went to a small Italian Coffee Shop that was just around the corner from our work, because I thought I need a flaming drink after all that, even though, I could have had one when I got back home. 

 Only, what came to my mind was while I was sitting down, waiting for my drink was, did Matt watch me after I had left them from work?  Because, as Matt could have probably  known that I went straight into see Deek and Laura, before of thinking, I'll go to have a quick drink at that coffee shop.   So, he could have maybe gone around himself, to see Deek to find out what happened while I was there.  As I wouldn’t be surprised he had.  But before I will continue, with what else had happened after that, well let me just tell you how all those feelings of mine for Matt had arose.  For okay!  Maybe all of those from work didn’t help by playing with my feelings but on that very same night especially now after hearing Matt say what he had do believe it could have been also something else, that truly had started all those feelings that I have for Matt to arise. 


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