Wednesday, 5 January 2000

Playing Games - Chapter 42




                                       FIFTEEN YEARS LATER


                       WHAT HAPPENED TO BOTH SANDY AND MATT?

                                                        AS WELL AS


                                                    JUST WHAT IF?

 Fifteen years later, Yes! I do sometimes, just sometimes, wonder, 'what if our paths would cross again?   Or may bump into each other, by pure accident-like!  Would I be pleased to see him?  Or not?  Because, once again, it as been a long time since I saw Matt.  Like the way of how I tilted my head just slightly, as he always manage to being the shyness out of this girl, those many years ago!  Who knows?  Only, that I know this, "Leopards don't charge their spots," meaning, how Matt acted towards me most of the time, back then, won't or can't ever see that guy changing and be a simply a really nicer guy!  

 Course, of reminding myself of how Matt wasn't at all nice most times, towards, "Sandy," course, of the way he simply behaved like, "Hyde," from "Dr Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" then he was with, with all those other silly, stupid immature girls that not just worked there, but who really needed to bloody grow-up, plus that weenie, "Pencil-stick Wednesday" aka Bobby!   Why, not forgetting, Matt, as he wasn't any different either, especially, how he was so a like all those other guys, that just simply wanted one thing from girls!  Which, to be frank, I totally disliked about any of those dam guys, that just like to act in that way! 

 Even though, I may love Matt so deeply and passionately, forever-like now, the way he simply kept going about back then, could not see myself in really wanting to know him, as a person or even as a friend!  Course, of the way I am, wouldn't want to know anyone like that!  Course, part of me, had just sometimes like to imagine that if I ever met that someone, well, they've got to really nice, but not thinking they may want just that one bloody thing!  "Why no!  As I had truly still always imagined, like I once had if I could meet that special person in my life well they've got to be tall, dark hair, nice dark eyes with a lovely smile and who's got to slightly broad.  Plus, this girl would love to meet someone that's slightly shy!  Oh!  Yes, they would have to be a little shy over me!   

 So, as I'm not or ever will be, like a "Tart" or most of all, like a humongous "Fat-Trollop," that Matt ended up marrying, course, back then, there was a "Fat Trollop" that most of the time, had looked so darn-gone miserable most of the times, with it's very twisted huge face and a deformed Fat body, that kept going around with Matt, but, who was always going an on and off like!  Which, those that knew Matt, from out of work-like, could seriously, see that, that wasn't a proper relationship, with that miserable, "Fat Trollop." 

  Who later on decided to play a dirty rotten game, by giving her huge, enormous, fat body, that I can only describe, better known as, "The Blob" from a very old, but well-know Film, that, that great old Actor, "Steve McQueen" had starred in, those many years ago, up the dove, meaning, pregnant, course of thinking, 'oh! Sandy's after Matt!  

 Which, what a joke, that was, to think!  I mean, even though, how much I loved Matt, had never thought, for one moment, that I wanted Matt for myself.   "No!  "No! And "No!  Course, for one thing, he wasn't a nice guy, that again, had imagined in a guy, course, of just wanting flaming sex!  As I'm definitely not someone, that says to herself, "I  want you!  Or even someone that says"I need you!  Like a a pathetic, shellfish, spoilt Brat, that, that "Creature from the Bottomless-Pit," or "some "Creature from The Black Lagoon" had truly always behaved, when they were around Matt.   

 With it's fat twisted miserable-face even if they tried to smile but just couldn't, because of  looking like a miserable "old Sag," don't forgetting, the name, "The huge, humongous "Fat Trollop" as that is what they are more well-known as, around here now.  If one does see, around the Redditch Kingfisher Centre.  Not forgetting, the name of "The Blob" either, had showed that she truly was the kind that was trying to get what they wanted by tying that a so-call person down, thinking 'now, that I've done, what I did," "well, you or anyone else, can't have him," "course, look what I've now done, to him?  "Hey!  "Just look?  "My humongous, "fat, large, Blob" of a body, is now pregnant! 

 Which, for the way, they kept going an on and then off with each other, like I was told, well, whatever that biggest humongous "Fat Trollop" was having, well, if anyone that had a mind of their own, would also agree, that isn't a human child from a real, true love relationship, but a bloody "Sex Object" or a "Spog!  Course, of the way, they were truly going out together way back then, "on but, off!  On then off!  Over and over, for just pure having Sex!  And not like a serious relationship!  

 Course, once again, I didn't even think for one minute, that I wanted Matt for myself!  But, what I do believe is "what Karma goes around," "will come back to them!  So, even though, it takes two, for a relationship to work out, well, like I was always told then, by those that knew him around, had always said, "it's only Matt, that thinks in his head, it's a relationship."  As well as, mentioning, "course, you can't say it is a relationship," "but, only  sex," "sex!  "And more blooming sex that he's with."  

 Not forgetting, they also, asked me, "course, would you call a relationship, an on off going-like?"  "Well, would you Sandy?"  Which, like anyone would, if their not so fickle or stupid, like how Matt and his "humongous, Fat, twisted Trollop" were, back then and who knows, probably still are, until this day onwards, agreed with them, that, "yes!  "That isn't a relationship, but, like as you said, must be just for sex, sex and more bloody sex!  As Matt did act like that so much, so, if I was asked, what I would have to say to Matt now, well, it would have to be, "ha! "Bloody ha, ha, to you, Matt wherever you may be!  "Course, like I mention, "what karma goes around," "must have come right back to you," for how Matt had truly hurt me, all those years back.  

 Not to mention though, Matt, maybe "fickle or stupid," if he hasn't worked this one out, already, course, who may have a serious problem with her, if he knew, what Sandy knew of what his so-call "Bimbo" of a wife, had seriously done, behind his bloody back, if and only, if they had separated or parted yet again, as usual, before maybe going back to Matt and possibility reconvincing that great big idiot, back then,  that her "huge Fat Blob" of a body is expecting a Filthy Spog!  Which, it was!  Course, I very much doubt, that those that wasn't his mates or family, would actually, say, "but, it's not!  It's a human Child!  Though, if they only knew, like how a lot of us did knew, around work then?  As, it was just plainly sick, to even imagine that Matt was truly like that, with his, "bitter, yet twisted, deformed, repulsive, blonde Girlfriend, who was that "Fat Trollop" then, for just having Sex!  Sex!  And more flaming sex, then rather going out with that special someone, in the right way.      

 Anyway, some years back now, while Sandy was just minding their own bloody business, just walking towards W.H SMITHS,  had not only noticed that "humongous, Fat, twisted Trollop" was walking so slowing towards her, wearing dark glasses, not with her hideous, "Ancient," "Prehistoric, old hag, of a "Dinosaur Mother," that's does look bitter and twisted.   if anyone saw them.  Even thinking was she walking with one of "Matts Sex-Objects! Which, she wasn't either!  Why, no!   And she certainly wasn't with Matt, far from it, course what Sandy noticed, was while walking past "W.H SMITHS, seeing her holding hands with some tall, but, lanky guy, that had dark, wavy short hair! 

 Which, all that Sandy could basically, think of at that present time, was, 'you fucking Bitch, you!  Course, if that is you, trying to hide that ugly look of yours, behind those glasses, but who was smirking away, well, how could you, go behind Matts back like this?  "How?  And who Sandy had also, truly thought, "how could you, hurt poor Matt like this?  Course, of ever imagining him, possibly finding out that you could have had a secret affair, before, maybe, going straight back to Matt, like you guys normally acted in the past?  But, just feeling for how Matt would really react two, ever finding that out!  As, he would be distraught, hurt, as well as, possibly feeling dam well, humiliated by how she had truly went behind his bloody back, and just maybe having sex with yet, another, if they had parted then, hurt him, like how he once hurt Sandy!  

Which, even though, Sandy could have been wrong, about in thinking that she was having affair behind Matts back, with this slightly tall, but "skinny-lanky" guy, who did have the same hair colour that Matt had, then, well, let's just say that later on, that "Fat Trollop" of Matts, "Misses," showed up around the Redditch Kingfisher Centre, with yet, another "Sex-Object," but, who what Sandy had kept wondering, was "but, was this One, Matts kid, or Not?  As, Sandy had thought, she wouldn't be at all surprised that it won't Matts Sex-Object," because, of that time of seeing her, walking past "W.H SMITH" as she did, holding handing with somebody else, then Matt!   Course, it certainly looks like she had another child, to maybe, think all over again, it's was mine, if  had happen like!

 Though, as, for myself now, well, let me say, "I'm now enjoying my life, like my dad had wanted me two, before he sadly past away, in 2008.  And which, after thinking to myself, way back then, that after Matt departure from our work, now lost my beloved dad, who not only loved so very much, but, who knew how I truly felt for Matt.  So, the way I was now feeling, was, because of  how I was so close to him, had thought, to herself, 'I've lost another important person in my life now!  Which, was so difficult to cope, course, of feeling that I lost two people that I loved so much now!   

 And even though, I do still very much love Matt, weather he's here or not," "I will always love him, course, my feelings is not like any other that would turn on and then off, as my feelings are genuine, course, my feelings have got more stronger, throughout these fifteen years, for him then ever, not forgetting, "Luke Wilson!  Who, like Matt, do think I could be in love with you also, course, of the way he truly reminds me of Matt!  Maybe, its those dam eyes of his, who like when I used to look deeply into Matt's eyes, would feel like he could definitely hypnotise me, in an instance.  Even when I see "Luke Wilson" unforgettable, mystifying, lovely smile, could knock this girl way out, like Matt also had, those many years back! 

 But, getting back to "what if Sandy and Matt would once again, cross paths after all these years or just simply bump into one another!  Well, let me tell you, I can't see that from ever happening, course, of how I'm sure he's married to that "Creature of the Bottle-less-Pit" or the "Creature from the Black Lagoon."  As well as, secondly, having bloody loads of trashy "Sex-Objects" from "The Blob," that we call a body!  

 Course, I like nice guys, really nice guys, and not someone that just want sex, as well as, someone, that in the past, did act like "Dr Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" towards only me and no one else, which Matt was like towards me.  Not forgetting, if he had disliked me that much back then when I knew him more, well why, would I want to see Matt, that I will always love now?  Course, I'm certainly not allowing anyone like himself, to hurt my feeling over again, by first of all, giving this girl, a look that could be an angry look, which, was glaring down at me with a very bad moody look!     

 Anyway, it was more when I said, secondly, it was having bloody loads of trashy "Sex-Objects" from "The Blob" that we call a body!  As that was what they all are, you know, bloody "Sex-Objects," not someone's children course, once again, like I was always told, from those that knew Matt around work, those many years ago.  But I'm not talking of those "measly, freaking Barstards," that was so friendly with Matt from work, why, no!  It was those that simply knew him-like, outer side from work, that always said to yours truly, at times, "hey, Sandy, would you call, someone that's in a relationship, if they were always going out with them, an on and of?"  As well, as telling me, "as it's only Matt, that really believes that he's in a relationship with them," "no one else, does." 

 So, anyway, if anyone stumble upon a truly, "humongous, Fat but very twisted Trollop" going around the Kingfisher area, in the Redditch Town Centre, then, you've not unfortunately, seen Matt's wife, but, whose sometimes, just sometimes is seen around with either, one of their "Sex-Objects or SPOGS" whatever, you want to look at it." "Or just sometimes, the "hideous Creature" or "The Creature from the Black Lagoon" goes around with, the "Mother," whose a very ugly, wrinkly, decrepit old hag, that truly looks more and more like a hideous "Dinosaur," then anything else.  "And yes!  "That's right!     

 But, whose Mother, is most definitely looked so alike a very hideous, Prehistoric, Decrepit, old Ancient, Dinosaur, that as you know, were around, those millions of billions years ago!  But, who frankly, should have been bombed by one of those Asteroid, like it had, with all the rest of them, that got extinct back then, by the Asteroids!  Then, rather Asteroid missing the dam, decrepit old hag, of a "Dinosaur," as it did!     

 Which, I feel sorry for those, if any that does come across a "Prehistoric, Old Hag," that I could even describe that last ever "Dinosaur" is bitter, twisted and deformed if you saw the hideous Mother, of  "the Fat, humongous Trollop" going at times, into "The Muffin Break" Coffee Shop in the Redditch, Kingfisher Centre with either Matts "Fat Trollop," of a wife, or going in with maybe, one or two of their dirty "Sex-bloody Objects!    

 Not forgetting, though, at times, that very Old, Decrepit, Ancient, "Dinosuaur" of that "Fat Trollop" that should have been Shot long ago, as well, as bombed, as I just mentioned just sometimes goes into "Muffin Break" on their own trying to sit down where no one else, could probably try and see them, closer to "Next" clothes shop, at the far, far back of "Muffin Break."   But unfortunately, for everyone of their customers, can't hide their hideous, twisted, deformed plus, their revolting small body, as it's turned out, with short yellowish hair and a face, that by-god, if anyone does see them, wants to really puke!  And I certainly do mean, Puke!  Even when that "Dinosaur" try's to put smile to anyone around!  

 Why!  I wouldn't even be at all surprised, that, that miserable "Dinosaur" could be flaming linked to "Nessie," "The Loch Ness Monster," that only rather appears from the loch in Scotland, that's if it existed or not!  But if it does, well the Mother of that "humorous fat Trollop" that she's well-known around more in Redditch, really could be related to "Nessie."  Again, the "Prehistoric Monster!  

 Though, getting back of meeting Matt, after all these years, well, it wouldn't be just so strange!  But as I'm more realistic, can't ever see that from ever happening, only imaging it, if we had, like, 'what if?  'Just, what if we did?  But, there again, "would I want to, or not?  Course, now, I'm a dreamer, yes, a real dreamer, not someone who's so bloody desperate, for looking for a guy, because, as I'm a total, old fashion, romantic person, that believes that true love, takes a hell of a long time to start between two people who may love each other.  Then rather just meeting anyone, then either start going out with them or having sex, which I'm not like that at all!     

 There again, if I did bump into Matt, after all these years, well, really I don't know what would truly happen?  Only, maybe guess that the guy hasn't probably changed, course of knowing how Matt disliked me, way back then.   And not to mention, he had joined in with the rest of those measly Barstards from work, to play upon my feeling over him, so all those hopes and dreams, that I once had of dreaming, as now all been shattered!  

 As I can't believe in that phrase, "There's always someone out there."  Or that, "I will meet someone nice," because of how I truly feel for Matt!  So, instead, now I just think to myself, 'oh!  'If only, I can meet, "Luke Wilson." in person?  Then, rather, imagining seeing Matt again, course, with "Luke," well, first of all, the Actor, just wouldn't know of why I truly think I love him so much!  

 And secondly, with "Luke Wilson" well, I know I won't run away from him, like how I was, at times with Matt, because of how I was truly feeling, when he just couldn't help himself, by knocking this girl way out, by allowing me to just gaze into those deepest, dark Brown Eyes of his, whenever he was always around.  Not forgetting, his lovely and sexy smile, And oh boy!  Could Matt certainly hypnotise me on the spot, but who I always ended up blushing right in front of him.  Which to be perfectly frank, was bloody worth it, if I have to admit it to myself!

 But, for watching any of "Luke Wilsons" Films, especially, "The Family Stone" which I love more, had always somehow, reminded me, of looking straight into Matts, adorable big brown eyes!  So, Matt, wherever you are, thanks, for allowing this girl to not just have those feelings, that I did, but who I still do for you, course, I'm not like anyone you had met then!  But, who, whenever I would see any of those "Luke Wilson," DVD's especially, that film, "The Family Stone," could now truly imagine that I've got that very same feelings, as I do for Matt!  

 As, I truly believed back then, that after Matt had sadly left our work and then, shortly after, coming across to the very first DVD of "Luke Wilson" well, I not only felt that was so bloody uncanny, of how I did come cross this Actor, right there and then.  But who thought, it was like a sign for yours truly to say, "well, Sandy, maybe you should start to dream of loving this Actor, course of whom, he resemble of!  So, again Matt!  Wherever you maybe now, my "Brown Eyes," thanks darling!  "Just thanks, for just allowing this girl to now be hopeless in love, with not only one person, but two!  "Which of course, is you Matt and that Actor, "Luke Wilson because of how he reminds me of you and you only darling! x         



                                                         THE END

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