Wednesday, 5 January 2000

Playing Games - Chapter 5


Chapter 5


For I give you an example, on this one occasion while I had this day off, had saw Matt where I was coming out off from the ladies toilets in the Kingfisher Centre, leaning against a wall that was opposite, looking slightly down at first, then who slowly glanced back up where I wondered how did the Matt know I was around here?  As well as, why else, was he just hanging around here doing nothing but, looking down then, who slowly looked back up, as I came out from where I had been?  Because, it was like he had somehow knew I was around there, but waiting for me to come out from where I had been!  Though, no sooner then he saw me that he approached me to first ask, “are you doing anything important Sandy?"  Which, to be perfectly frank, got a little confused to where this was heading up until, he asked me another question which was, “could you possibly come into work to help us out for a few hours?"  Which, I actually thought, 'Oh, Matt! I would do anything for you, but, not for work!

Because, there was something about Matt that had always and I do mean always had made me feel like I was going into a little world of my own, that l I couldn't say no to him!  Even though, I told him, “I’m doing something Matt, "so I’m sorry I can’t help you!  But, again, it was also to do with the guy sending me into a trance by just looking into his big brown eyes, whenever I saw him smiling around me, that is!  So, after walking along with Matt toward work, with a little smile upon my face, thinking to myself, that this is nice!  As, well as, it was going to be fine, well, instead, it wasn't, because no sooner then I asked Matt, “where do these jeans go?  

As it was a new item that must have came to us, while I wasn't there, that he not only gave me a strange look, but which, had shouted from the bottom of the shop, while he was with that Liz, whom really had a nose like one of those toffee-nose sobs, like a flaming big head!  “My god!  “What do you mean, you don’t know where those jeans go?"  But what he had also, made yours truly, look stupid, followed by him, saying after to me, “how long have you been working here?"  Hey!  How long?

Then, what’s more, what the guy had surprisingly said to me next could say, had truly hurt my feelings so deeply, because of what he said was, “do you know what, each day, I can’t wait for it to be over, because of how you always frustrate me so!  Then, after asking him, “well do you want me to leave then?  Turned to Liz, then, who turned back to me and said, “Oh!  “Why don’t you go away!  As, if he was trying to tell me, I can not stand of seeing you Sandy! Which, then, what shocked me more, was after Matt had truly yelled out, that, he shouted out to me, “because I can’t stand the sight of you!  Which, coming from him personally, had again, truly hurt my feelings so much, even deeper then, anyone could imagine!  He had truly hurt me, alright!  Then, what was so worse, was that Matt just came out saying, "Why, don't you get out of face, as I can't stand the sight of you! 

Which, at first, didn't really understand why he would say anything like that to me, since it was him that wanted me in, in the first place!  Anyway, because of the way I had started to feel, but, which didn’t want to show it, made me felt that I could have cried right there and then, in front of him, but again, I didn't, course, had stopped myself from doing so!  Maybe, it was that, after Matt had said all this to me, that he really had left me totally speechless-like, as well as, didn’t expect anything like that, coming from him!  

Or even would believe for one moment, that Matt was going to say anything like all that to me when after coming in, especially, for him then, work.  After noticing him leaning on that wall, opposite the ladies toilets, on my day off, asking me nicely, "if I would kindly help them, at work?"  Especially, as I thought then, that after he asked me, as he did, to come in, like he had!  As, well as, it was on my day off, well, course, I truly had thought, it was going to turn out to be okay, for me on that day, well, lets just say, that if I knew that what was going to happen to me, from the way Matt had spoken to me after I asked him about, that new jeans!  Course, once again, had only gone into work on my day off because of only him and not because work had needed some help!  

Only, what I truly didn’t expect to happen was, while I was walking away from both of them, tears was just flooding down, upon my face, but only tears, but as in crying but just tears running down my face!  Though, while I was near to the front of the shop after walking away from them, still trying to do my work by sorting some clothes out, yet, at the same time, trying not to allow anyone notice me of how deeply Matt had truly hurt my feelings, by saying what he had, especially, who had probably truly cared for him so very deeply, was to late for that, because, while I was really trying so hard to do that, then someone saw me as I slowly glanced up and looked at them, looking back at me, as if to say, what's wrong with you?   .

 Only, what was even more worst, while noticing this person was big Liz had also, saw me as I suddenly noticed her from the corner of my eye!  As she was hanging around near the till doing something or was she?  Because, what was going through my mind was, she could have been there so she could get back to Matt to tell him what’s happening.  In other words, what was going on when she saw me, because, no sooner then she saw me, like she had, then, she rushed straight back to Matt, which as she did thought I was safe, but was I wrong because again, no sooner then she had that Matt had suddenly appeared with that look as if to say, “what’s wrong Sandy?  Which, I thought, as if you didn’t know what was wrong Matt!  But instead, of telling him the truth, what I actually told him was, “I’ve got a headache, a terrible headache!  Which, I was sure that while I was telling him this, knew that I wasn’t really telling him the truth!  Because, as I was waiting for some sarcastic comment from him, all that the guy said was, “go in the back then,” which after coming straight back out had noticed Matt was looking directly at me with that look.



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