I COULD HAVE REALLY NEEDED
MATT TO COMFORT ME!
DUE, TO KNOWING I'M GOING TO BE LOSING
Only, shortly after Matt had left I had found out that my dad who I really loved so very much and who I was so very close to was sadly diagnose as having Cancer which had not only left me feeling more upset then I already was because I really did love my dad but who I also felt that after my dad had die that my life now didn’t seemed to be worth living any more. Which, to some may just sound terrible or even awful to say about one-self but let me tell you, if anyone like myself, who was so very close to their dad that died suddenly well just wouldn’t be so surprised how they may feel the same. As I thought of losing one person that I love was bad enough, but for losing two, that I loved in some respect, as the only difference between Matt and my dad, was Matt just left work whereas for my beloved dad had sadly died which I truly felt twice as worst then I already had for Matt!
Course, how I look at it, being a Woman now, those days, a lot of girls either first think of one thing and one thing only, like guys do! Or most girls would just simply mock, of how us, Women, had all grew-up and believed in, course, if one stupid girl sees another, going around with a bloody baby, well, they always seemed to think, “I want to have a baby! Or have a baby to get money of the Government, so that they could probably get themselves a place! Or just simply think to themselves, if one gets pregnant, well, they could trap the guy that they could be with, by either thinking to themselves, or saying, "ha! "ha! Now, you can’t leave me!
Which, as you know, could not call, isn't a proper true, relationship, but, once again, some nasty creature, as in girls, these days, would decide to play a dirty game with some poor guys life, so that they won't ever be able to leave their own life! Thinking to themselves, that if one gets themselves "locked-up" as in get themselves pregnant, for the sake, that the guy can't certainly leave them, for sure! For in my opinion, I don’t think they have any idea, what so ever, that having a baby, would simply take over their lives. As, some reckons they can still honestly enjoy themselves like someone who’s never had kids or either want them! Because, having a child would take up so much responsibility for both, whether they could be married or not!
And it was also, to do with the fact, that if anyone had truly came across my beloved dad’s wallet, that he always had on him, would have thought he had my mum photo in it, not forgetting, my sister’s would be besides myself, now wouldn’t you? Well, you’re wrong! Because, ever since I can remember, my dad had always carried four or five small photographs of yours truly, in his wallet, then, pictures of that Mafia that I was referring to my mum or sister. Which, you would have thought so, but who didn’t, course of knowing full well, he, at times, showed me his wallet.