THAT I QUIETLY WENT OVER TO SEE
MATT TO WISH HIM HAPPY BIRTHAY
AS WELL AS
HOW IT WAS WHEN I SO WANTED TO
GIVE THAT BOBBY A GOOD LEFT HOOK!
Now, early one day while waiting for Bobby or that Barbie doll aka Cilla to come, so they would open the shop, noticed him, Matt was looking slightly but was also, trying to hide himself, while his shop had also opened! As he seemed to be glancing over at my direction, giving me that nice look, as if I couldn’t tell of whether he was smiling or not! So, throughout this day, especially even though, I felt I wanted too, part of me had also felt, but should I? Because of feeling well we are not exactly friends!
As what I wanted to do was to pop into his work for a moment, straight after work, to wish the guy a very Happy Birthday as his birthday was in two days away, not to mention that his birthday is over the weekend. So when I had finally finished, without saying a word to either Bobby or Cilla, because of knowing them, as well as they could have tried to stop me, slowly walked towards Matt’s work still thinking to myself, should I really do this? Because of knowing how the guy had always made me felt whenever I got so close to him.
But before leaving Matt, what I do remember in saying once again, was, “well just have a lovely birthday Matt." Only, as I continued on saying, “just please try not to drink too much with your mates when you do have your party." When I then, ended on saying, “but I’m not saying don’t drink or enjoy yourself Matt, just please try not to drink so much, because you don’t want to have a bad hangover now, now do you Matt?" Because of the times you had ended up feeling so bad!
Though, the following day as I went into work as usual the first thing I noticed was that awful "plastic dolly" aka Cilla, giving me the most unusual smile as if she was trying to say I know something you don’t! Which I did find a bit to strange nevertheless! Although, my theory was, could Matt have let the guys know about my unexpected visit from yesterday, to just wish him a Happy Birthday?
Which, by my end of my shift had decided to go the other way, then my usual way, as I normally would have, course, of passing his work. Because whether I was entitled to or not, this news of Matt had hurt my feelings, course, Bobby had wanted to make out, if I had some kind of problem with it! Can say that did really hurt my feelings as I felt like someone had stuck a knife in me and twisted it! As that was how I truly felt after listening to that "bony-flesh-face of Bobby, about how she had truly mentioned the news of Matt’s. Who I still wanted to give her a blooming good left hook, then rather giving her a bloody good slap across her plain face.
After finishing, instead of going out my usual way, went the other way, with my head slightly down, because of how I truly felt, as well as, I felt in any minute, tears was going to suddenly appear. So, after going around past the small, but dreary Costas Coffee Shop, I ended up going in my usual coffee shop at the centre around the shops, feeling like that my heart was truly now broken into two, as well as, feeling a tear was appearing upon my cheek. Because for me this news was the worst that I could ever hear about Matt, whatever they may all think from work, of this news this was definitely the worst sort of news of Matt, then knowing he was leaving, when he had back then, which I also, took it hard!