I COULD HAVE NEEDED MATT TO ME CHEERED UP!
Now, if I mentioned it what happened around this time well let me tell you about it because what happened was on the very same year that my dad died, but it was coming up to the first Christmas of not having him around well we as the family had heard some disturbing news about someone we knew, but who as a small child had the most biggest crush. Which I had thought I needed to be cheered up straight away, so cheered, that I thought I was doing! Only, no sooner then I had thought I cheered myself up that Deek who was only visiting us told me, “stop, stoking Matt! Which to be frank, wouldn’t dream of doing.
But who then, decided to stand over with his arm leaning against one side of the desk talking to his colleague, while at the same time, had occasionally kept glancing over to where I was sitting again, in that Coffee Shop. So, really it was Matt, that had kept looking straight at me and not the other way round, as I’m sure he had made it out to be to Deek when he must have meant by saying to me, “stop," "stoking Matt! As well as, you must have known the other reason, of why I couldn’t continue in writing, while I was in there, was of the way Matt had kept glancing over to my direction. And probably even more so after I saw him leaning against that very same desktop, the way he had before talking to one of his colleague, because occasionally of him glancing over to me with a smile.
Which I did actually think, well why, aren’t you looking at me Matt? “Hey! Just tell me that! Why? I mean I did say hello, to you! But as I thought of this, had suddenly remembered that incident of when Bobby had came dashing into work that day, from her break shouting out loud the news about Matt, from her tiny-twisted gob, to Cilla. But who nastily turned around, facing me suddenly, at the same time and once again, just couldn't help herself, by opening that decrepit gob of hers, to say, "well, have you got a problem, with that Sandy?" Which, all I truly wanted to do right there and then, was hit her one!