Wednesday 5 January 2000

Playing Games - Chapter 41


                                                                 Chapter 41

                                                                THE TIME

                                      WHEN MATT HAD ASKED SANDY



                             WHEN MATT WANTED SANDY TO SORT FIND 


                                                              AS WELL AS

                                  ADMITTING THOSE TRUE LOVE FEELINGS


                                        BOTH LUKE WILSON AND MATT

                                BUT WHO WILL ALWAYS LOVE THE ONE

                                                        AND ONLY, MATT!

 Then, one day as usual, after Matt had came wondering into see Bobby as always, who at the time was doing something at the back, well let’s just say, as soon as we saw each other from a far well not only did we try in some way tried to look in another direction!  Course, like some would say about us, "there's something going on between you two!  As I was really trying not to show signs that I was shy!  By first, saying to him, “I’ll get Bobby for yeah!  But who I still wondered of when he saw me had slightly turned around!  Because that weren’t like him at all!  Course, that’s normally myself!  That would have done something like that, whenever though, I seemed to only see Matt!  

 So, after notifying that freaky, little hideous, Wednesday! Who as we know, was aka Bobby of Matt’s presents was acquired!  Well, like always, she had sent me over to him to tell him, "she's coming!  But when she had came over to him to speak to him, well just like a pair of silly school kids went around to a table quietly!  A table that was at the far corner at the front!  Only, while doing so!  What I couldn't help was, noticing they were both looking at me while talking away!  And as I slowly walked towards the front, near the entrance because of knowing who was there, looking straight at me, with those gorgeous-big-puppy- dog eyes!  Which, of course, was my darling, aka Matt!  Had came in to see her!

 Whilst I was trying to avoid of knowing who was probably still watching me from where they already were!  Had now tried to carry on with my work!  Although, while trying two, I suddenly heard my name, “Sandy!  Which was Matt, trying to get my attention, whist he was with Bobby!  Who, in my mind, had always thought, she was probably like some gods gift to any flaming guys that would come across her path!  But anyway, as I thought Matt had seemed that he wanted to speak to me, course of looking at me!   Yours truly had went over to them!  

 Only, the more I glazed into those big, brown, adorable, mesmerising, melting eyes of Matts, whist I was trying to cope of being slightly nearer to him, the more I wasn’t just feeling nervous!  Nope!!!  But who was also, showing signs that my shyness was starting to appear!  Which, for me!  Had made it worst!  Because every time I was like that, well I had in the past, had always, somehow started to blushed in front of them two!  Course, while I was really trying to stick around to the both of them, I ended up walking away from both Bobby and my gorgeous Brown Eyes aka Matt!  Which, what nobody knew because that as always been like a pet name of mine for Matt!  

 Maybe it was of how I had always found looking into those adore big brown mesmerising, melting, sexy eyes of his!  Which was so mystified!  That even somehow always stopped me from concentrating on doing my work!  And yes!  Even though, things as happened as they had, to the both of us!  Course, at first!  Because of knowing full well that I normally do get along so well with any guys, in general!  As in, making friends with them more then I do with the same sex as myself!  Well. secondly!  Of course!  What I’ve still always wanted to know is that, why did those lot from work, while Matt was with us, did what they did?  Which was playing upon my emotions?   As I wondered-like, that who knew what could have happened if they just left things be?  

 But once again, even though, things had happened to the both of us!  Well what I really wanted to know was apart from what I may have already said!  Like before, entering work on their very first day was not realising just yet, that how Matt and that hideous, repulsive Liz, was going to start that!  Course, as I was sure I heard a voice from inside saying something like, “she’s just coming now!  Which, back then, after hearing that, had thought, now what could they possibly mean, by saying that?  Course, at first!  There wasn't anyone else, around me, while I was just coming in!  And most of all!  Whoever, this voice was, well who were they indicating?  Me!  Or someone else?  That was speaking inside the my work?  

 Though, if that was me that they were referring two, then once again, why?  But getting back to what I was saying, when I did honestly try to stick around both Bobby and Matt!  Who if I haven’t said it, had always thought the world of!  And still do!  From this day onwards!  Had called me over from where I was, near the front!  Who shortly after, I had thought he needed a pair of jeans!  A pair that the size didn’t exactly existed! Couldn’t help herself for not hanging around any longer!  Why?  You may say, was a very silly question to ask!  Because as always, it was just seeing him looking straight at me with that lovely smile of his!  Which had made this girl, as always go all shy and bashful!  But if the truth is to be told!  I think all this, must have showed that I was truly in love, for sure!  And still could well be, till this day!  But at the time, who I was just to shy to express her feelings!

Who thanks to Matt, wouldn’t have really known about that America Actor, Luke Wilson!  Who every single time had always used to watch his films, not only felt exactly the same as I did when Matt was around me, all those many years ago!  But who could well be in love with the Actor now!  But that doesn’t mean to say, all those feelings that I had for Matt way back then, is no more!  Because that’s not so!  For even though what I may have just said about how I feel for that Actor, Luke Wilson!  My feelings, won’t ever change!  Or go off my darling, Matt!  No-sir-re!!!  Which must shows how deep down I’m probably still very much in love with that big brown eyes of Matts!  That always had left this girl feeling like a complete shy kid! 

 But if you must know!  Even though, it may sound like I’m in love with two guys!  It's always been the one!  Which of course, is my darling, Matt!  Yes!  As anyone that knew me then, or now, it's so obvious that I truly do love Matt!  Course, Luke Wilson is like a diversion!  A diversion, because of whom, he resembles!  So, in over words, I think I will, always, always love Matt!  It’s just at the time, I thought I would feel a whole lot better loving that Actor, Luke Wilson!  Course, of whom he was really the spitting-image of Matt!  Because of how that Actor, Luke, can't truly hurt my feelings!  And I do mean, who had truly hurt my feelings!  Like how my darling, Matt had, way back!  Who as you know, was Matt!    

 Even though, it may not be intentionally!  Boy!  Did Matt hurt yours truly aka Sandy so much!  But that doesn’t mean to say, my feelings for Matt now, doesn't exist any more!  Far from it!  Course, I grew-up in believing that if I ever fell in love with that someone!  Well, I do mean someone!  Then, loving them will be for eternity!  Then rather saying, "oh, yes! I love you!  If I was with them, of course!  Then, later on falling out with them, as in like, over and over again!  As for myself!  I would not only call myself, who's not only, genuine!  But who is also, an old fashion romantic!  but who once again, wouldn't or could love someone else!  In replacing my true love for Matt!  Because, my love for Matt will be always be for eternity now!  

 Even though, he never wanted to like me as a friend!  Or even wanting to know me as a person!  But who just thought it was absolutely funny to hurt yours truly!  I will always love that idiot! Course, no matter what!  Or where he maybe now!  It's just I do know for a fact, I'm totally in love for sure, with Matt!  Then with, Luke Wilson the Actor!  Who only, seems to be helping me so much with my real feelings, that I have and will always have, when I say, I love you Matt!  As well as, who knows full well, that if I imagined that I'm in love with Luke Wilson!  Well, it's only because as I once said, knowing that he can’t hurt me, like how you know who, had!  


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