As this is the end of my story what I would like to tell you
is why I’ve really written about how I first met Matt through work and
why I had thought in the first place that this guy could start something off in
my crazy life? Was that once long ago,
my sister had convinced me of going to see a Clairvoyant because of what
someone had said something about certain things to me which could say had
scared me in the past!
Then when she turned back to me she had continued to say
after asking me of whether I had already had a cat? And I replied, “yes! I have but only the one! Well she then had suddenly said, “is it a
black and white cat?
As I sure didn’t want to feel that I may lose her! Which then the Clairvoyant had made out that
there weren’t any need to worry about thinking you’re going to lose your cat
because you won’t! Although, saying all
that she did add that even though she does see me with a black and white cat
around me it may not stay! Then
finishing with, “but I can also see another will come!
Though, in between of talking about work she had all of a sudden
came out of asking me about whether you want kids? Because of seeing me holding a baby girl at a
Christening! Which too that question
gave her a definite NO! As
in NO WAY! Because as I always felt I wanted to enjoy my life
then rather being tied down with kids.
And even though she had said, “I can see that you will have
some bad times as well as good through work,” she also mentioned, “but you will
have some ups and downs with this person whom I do see you ending up with!
But who she had also said to me before hand that she can see
I will have two very long relationships, even though she did say how something
about how there will be someone on sense first!
But what she meant there I DO NOT KNOW only that was what she had said
roughly to me while she was telling me all this!
Even though, there maybe one or two
obstacles in the way first, “Don’t worry there, as whatever it is,
it won’t ever last because I can definitely say this one is YOURS,”
“YOURS, YOURS and only YOURS! Which she then kept on saying over and over,
“from work, work, work though! So, really what she was basically saying to
me was she can definitely see ME having a “BOYFRIEND!
(11) * And even though she mentioned something about how it will start when you turn forty she did actually say, “but I can definitely say, “by the age of forty-six you will either be SETTLED or with a PARTNERSHIP!
Then saying something like, “but it’s not until maybe later
when not only things go alright like home as well as work, that you will first
notice he will come around.
And when he does well YOU TWO will then get along much
Which I can say right now, DO NOT WANT TO COME TRUE
(12) * Also she had said, “that it will be when things will get better for you with your MONEY! As I can see your MONEY WILL GO UP!
Which after mentioning that she can see my MONEY will
be going up or start to could say that was ONE thing I definitely want
to COME TRUE for me from what everything had happened including
how those at home had treated me at my dad’s funeral and not forgetting around
the same time how those from work had kept on bulling me!
(13) * But still who she kept bringing up this
so-call person whom after telling me she does see me ending up
with will all happen when only once again things at home
as well as work and seeing money will start to get better for YOU!
That not only when he does come back out UNEXPECTEDLY-LIKE
that you will be the first too know but who when he does, “god help everyone
else, because as this One took their time! Which you will say to yourself thank god?
And as she was coming near to the end well like I mentioned
once before she had told me, “how later on she can definitely see me having my MONEY
all come back to ME! As well as saying
that she could see me holding a baby girl at a Christening again which must
confess that is the one thing I DO NOT WANT for sure!
And not forgetting that how she can definitely see ME
with a MAN in my life.
“A little boy,” because of how she can see my sister as a
little boy running around her! But no
sooner then she had asked her this, that my sister had mentioned how her
fiancée then, did have a little boy but who also had a little girl too!
Which to her replied was, “no! “It’s only a little boy that I can see around
*Which she then told me of, “how I see TWO MEN
in my life!
Once again, bring up my dad who she added, WILL ALWAYS
LOVE YOU no matter what! And the
other IS THIS ONE from
whom I will meet through work, as that’s what she had implied after
saying what she had to me.
So, before I continue let me first tell you that ALL that I told you so far as happened, “that is, where she told me about how there will be TWO MEN in my life the first is your dad and how the second one, will be this ONE from work, which I’m sure she was referring too. Because there wasn’t any other that she said only this one for whom I will meet through work!
Which unfortunately for me can only see that it could
probably be him because of how he seems to be the only guy from work that fits
the BILL from what I was told by that Clairvoyant? But for whom now don’t want to really think
about to much because of what happened!
But, what this Clairvoyant did also say to me, is that way before this guy from whom she really had made out it was going to be from work-wise that she DOES see me ending up with, COMES BACK eventually, well how you may dress will really impress Everyone around including his mates and HIMSELF that is!
Because I really don’t want to imagine that I will end up
having a child! That's if and only I may
end up with this person who she made out with from WORK will probably
have! Because that is definitely the ONE
THING I sure DON’T WANT from what this Clairvoyant had told
me TO COME TRUE FOR SURE!
* But still she did state that I she could definitely see ME ending up with a MAN in my life.
WHAT DID COME
TRUE SO FAR?
This is the year 2015, and what I’ve told you about my tape
that I had received from that Clairvoyant way, way back then, because while she
had told me all this she had also recorded it.
That is most times she had because, at times she told me that she had to
stop the tape. So, that, like the
others, that she had also saw told their future to is part of what she as to do
so that their future would come true too
(1) * Anyway, let’s get back to first what she
told me where she said, that things isn’t been going to well for me in past.
But will definitely get better you for sure like to
think it is slowly that is.
(2) * Then, secondly, how she mentioned by
rubbing my watch that have I got a friend with breast Cancer? Which no sooner then she had said this then
that I got a bit spook because of recently my sister did have breast Cancer
well it was more to do with having one of her breasts taken off because of
it But still what this Clairvoyant had
told me had freak me!
Because, for just a brief moment and I do mean a brief
moment I literally thought my god!
How do you know anything of that?
Only, it’s not a friend, it’s my sister! Still thinking, which for some reason turned
round to her who was sitting close by but, not saying anything only thinking
while looking at my sister, ‘how did she know?
Which then if I can remember my sister did add, that a sister can
also be count as being a friend! So,
that was true.
(3) * The third was how she told me if I knew
anyone from my past or present that I truly cared for? Which, after confusion on my behalf because
that certainly got to me well if it weren’t for my sister of saying what she
had, which she reckoned who it could?
Don’t think that the Clairvoyant would have really wanted to carry on
because she seemed to want to know who or whether she had got this part right.
But still, I just
didn’t know who on earth she could be on about even though what my sister had
said, I just still didn’t know who it could be!
As she mentioned, I may see them again. Still didn’t know.
That was until a week after I saw this Clairvoyant my mum
had a call from one of her old friend’s that told her Luke her younger son
for whom I’ve always adored since a young girl is going to visit. Which if she wanted to could feel free to
visit her then which when I heard could only imagine what happened next? Because the way I really had felt for Luke had
truly wanted to see him again.
Which when we arrived, was only then, that I thought about
what that Clairvoyant had meant by when she had mentioned how she can see
someone that I had cared for from either the present or the past, but weren’t
too sure because of how blurringly she could just make out of it even when my
sister had indicate that she knows who it could be? Because of how it all occurred so sudden
(4) * Then she sense still
rubbing my watch how I was a Spiritual person. Which, once again had really brought back a
time when I went through some experience I can’t really explain, “only that,”
it was some kind of experience I’ve never come across before that I can tell
you! As this happened, while I was on
the Youth Training Scheme way back in the late 80’s.
And it wasn’t until shortly after this incident had happened
that both my mum and dad had told me that what I must have experience was a
near death experience.
Why! You may say,
“well it wasn’t just how I described my experience to them both, but two weeks
after I had went through this, I had decided to go through the cupboard for
something, don’t know what but I had.
Only, while looking through the cupboard I stumble upon some
very old photographs to which I had no idea of whom they were only that they
did seem to be some very old photographs, of people that even I wouldn’t
recognise if someone asked me.
So, what did yours truly do next? But tell my dad of what I found in the
cupboard while looking for something and then asked him of whether he knew any
of these people? Which no sooner then he
had seen these photos, first asked me, “where on earth did you find these
photos? So, once again, I told my dad
that where I found them! But still I
hadn’t the faintest idea of whom these people that was in these photos
were? Until, that is he told me that
these people were his mum and dad which when I looked at them properly again,
well one of them had took my eye more.
MY NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE - Because one
of these photos of my Nan reminded me of one of those faces that through having
that near death experience that I had, had came across and that’s no
mistake! Course what I had experience
back then, after falling over and banged my head in a certain place is that I
was floating into space with no clouds or no planets around, only what seemed
complete darkest until what looked like some light that had looked as I
got nearer and nearer a cloudy effect.
Or in other words that I was finally reaching the end of a tunnel which
when I had, I had seemed to approach loads of what looked like people’s faces
young and old but only that came to their shoulders, then had what all seem to
blend into this cloudy surrounding which can tell you now was not at all afraid
Don’t ask me why? But
I weren’t! Because, while I came across
all these different faces for whom I didn’t know were all smiling to me and I
do mean, smiling at me.
Especially the one that I didn’t know of why then as I got
even more closer to the faces still not scared I heard a lovely sieving voice
that seemed to be coming from behind me.
Only, whoever voice this was didn’t seem to allow me to turn
around to see who was speaking only that it told me to, “go back, go
back, your time is not up.” Which no
sooner then I heard this then I felt I was pulled back suddenly seeing orange,
red and yellow stars flashing before my eyes. Which must confess only then scared me.
(5)* Then, while she had told me that sees me as an Animal
Lover more Cats then Dogs well, after telling me this she did
ask me if I had a black and white cat?
Which after telling her no, I haven’t!
Well let’s just say that she sees me with a black and white cat coming. Even after I telling her, “that I’ve already
have a cat, a black cat,” she still said, “well that won’t stop you from having
this black and white cat coming, as you will.”
Then, explaining you shouldn’t worry of thinking you may loss your cat
because you won’t!
Which before I continue, may I add that I did have a black
and white cat come into my life well let’s just say this cat entered my home
unexpectedly-wise but which I loved, being a cat lover. But like this Clairvoyant had predicted also,
while she sees me having this black and white cat come into my life, she also
mentioned how this cat won’t stay for long.
But who she once again, sees how she sees another cat coming.
Which strangely enough, had come true because shortly after
this black and white cat had come and stayed with us for quite a while that
another had appeared also?
(6) * The next thing, the Clairvoyant had said was,
really to the both of us, because it was really about whether we knew anyone in
the family that had any miscarriages? Which after telling her No! Well once again she brought up of how she
Now, what if I told you that shortly after my sister had
married that Creep, which none of us didn’t like really she told us first that
she was expecting, only that she had a miscarriage. And then another, which after thinking
about it, was really strange to say the least, because of how that Clairvoyant
way back then, had seen it.
Only, we just
absolutely had no idea then, of what was to be if you know what I mean? Because, of my sister telling her that
because of the treatment that she had for the breast Cancer that she had didn’t
expect anything to happen to her as that’s having a child of her own. So, really what I’m saying is that part had
also come true so how spooky that was.
(7)* And after asking me to be careful with my MONEY
SITUATION well, let’s just say that had sadly came true from after
thinking I’ve got a fair amount of money that I saved from the past well after
being picked on so much at where I used to work my Money had got
lower and lower. It was probably because my sister had told me way, way
back then that just go and treat yourself cause, “money isn’t everything!
(8) * Then, the Clairvoyant had talked about each of our
health first starting with my dad because of how she sense something around
his heart why she even asked us, if he had an angina problem? Which, after her sister said, “no! She did state that he does smoke though which
wouldn’t be surprised that later on may cause problems for him.
Then she went onto our mum that after first hinting to us
that even though she may not look old she can definitely see her suffering from
weak bones or something like that anyway.
While after telling my sister about herself by advising her if she had
ever concerned of having her good breast removed, in the event of maybe later
on seeing lumps reappear underneath her arm?
Which my sister did say that was what she was going to do.
Which if you must know, had also come true because it was
only shortly that my sister had the apportion to remove her good breast, and it
happened only not long ago, either as if I can remember she had this apportion
of hers only last month in April 2015, so once again, that had
definitely come true.
But when she came to me well that was different, because she
just asked me, “if I wanted to know anything about myself? Because, as she continued, “I can NOT SEE
ANYTHING WRONG,” which after hearing that must say felt some relief
because, when she spoke of our health, well, mush say was starting to
get a little worried. But still, she
wanted to know if there was anything I wanted to know?
So, as I was a little concerned about my head, because of my
history, well, I told her. And what she
told me was basically, “there’s nothing there, no there’s nothing to
worry about.” Even after I asked her
again she replied, “no! “there’s nothing there, but only blood and
(9) * Now, after telling us about each of our HEALTH
she stopped rubbing my watch for a while to go onto the Tarot Cards,
which was the whole reason of why I was there!
Because as I said before the reason of why I think my sister had
basically suggested of me seeing this Clairvoyant, was that some idiots, had
scared me by telling me that if I chosen a Card that had showed a Skeleton
holding what look like a long pole or something like that, from a
Tarot Pack of Cards well, that of course means, “I am going to die?
Which after knowing about how I was scared about this ONE
CARD when I had turned it around well only then had confirmed that I
shouldn’t be afraid of it because what others may say about it was NOT TRUE
what so ever. As she told me that this
card only means that there’s change in my life like Career-wise!
(10) * The next thing this Clairvoyant had told me
was how she sees me having some bad
times through work as well as good times though, including with this so-call
person that she definitely said, she sees me, ENDING UP WITH
Which still from this day on, can’t believe had really
come true, also, even the part where she told me over and over that work
does not want to lose you because while I was working where I had, these
many years again now well let’s just say after they all played with my emotions
so I would end up first, so confused that I had really fallen in love
with this person.
But before she had told me of this, she did state that IT
WILL HAPPEN, YOU JUST HAVE TO OPEN THESE DOORS THROUGH WORK
because once again she had said, “it will be through work that YOU
WILL MEET SOMEONE.”
Even though, she had mentioned that there will be one or two
obstacles trying to get in the way of you two don’t worry because THIS ONE
IS YOURS for sure.
Because of how she first mentioned that she can definitely
see me having a BOYFRIEND but which, once again told me that it will
be through work that I will MEET SOMEONE for sure.
(11) * Then what she told me next was ever more weird
to say the least because what she then said was by in your FORTIES,
possibly FORTY-SIX, I can see you either SETTLED DOWN or WITH
A PARTNER. Which I did wonder, ‘Oh
yell! As if to say, ‘that’s one thing I
can not ever see happening to me?
Because of all those years, of being bullied as well as been told, that
‘don’t ever expect someone to be remotely interested in you romantic-wise,
because, just look at you!
Which, even though I hate to admit it, made me think has
happened already? Because, of really
thinking about, way back and shortly after he had started working for us with
“Big Clare,” the Manager, Andy, then had kept telling me over and over “how this
person, which I won’t name his name really likes me big time. And I really do mean, BIG TIME.
And even though, I didn’t understand what he meant then,
well, let’s just say that I sure do now, because of how it all FITS THE BILL
or how IT ALL FITS to what that Clairvoyant had said, way, way back
then, before I had even started to work there which was back in November 2002,
till January 2012.
N O T E *
Please note though, that all this part AS NOT YET
But after that Clairvoyant had told me that she sees me either
SETTLED or in a PARTNERSHIP by my FORTIES!
But if not, well I can definitely still see you ending up
either SETTLED or in a PARTNERSHIP when you reach FORTY-SIX.
Well, let’s just say what she said next, is sure doesn’t
want to come true for sure!
Because, even though, that part hasn’t happened, can tell
you right now
DO NOT EVER WANT A CHILD OF MY OWN! NO!
Because that was what she also, added, after telling me by
the time I reach FORTY-SIX, she can definitely see me SETTLED
DOWN or in a PARTNERSHIP!
Which I can tell you, is still waiting to see if that part will
come true yet!
*As, I’m FORTY-SEVEN now and nothing
has happened yet, like in SOMEONE will be back UNEXPECTLY-WISE
has happened even.
Even though, this Clairvoyant back then, had said, “they
will come back out when you least expect it!
Can’t really see that will happen to me, even though that does sound
like it could be him “And when they do come back out, well you will be the
first one to know!
But then said, “But, god help everyone else, when that
does happen, because this one took their time.”
Which again, I don’t know what she meant by that bit!
* Which I must confess now, is still not quite sure of
wanting that part to maybe come true!
Course, I think I rather have that a dream then, reality because, has I
pointed that part out before, that guy, when I knew him had always seemed to
want one thing only, if they want together with someone, which I wouldn’t
want! So, there we have it! As, I see myself decent not someone who’s Trash
that like guys is also want SEX!
Only, I can tell you right now, I truly don’t want to get MARRIED
or either knowing someone like him, who she had predicted that she can
definitely see me ending up with this one! Don’t think I want to know him like
in that way! And why! You may well say,
well, it was all because, way back then, when I knew, this guy, if that is that
so-call person that she had told me about, will come back like,
unexpected-like into my life, could say that has he showed his true colours,
way back when I once knew the guy more! Don’t think I want to ever
Course all that, guy had ever thought of, probably even
wanted was SEX, SEX and more SEX, if he wanted to know
So, the answer to that question is that I sure hope that
part won’t ever come true for me! As,
I’m not like that! Course, if ever,
that old dream of mine, of thinking I would meet someone is SOMEONE LIKE ME,
SHY AND DECENT! Which is for who
would like me for who I am!
Not, like Steve, who really, even though it’s been nine and
a half years, since I kind of knew him better then now, because, there’s a
saying, LEPARDS DON’T EVER CHANGE THEIR SPOTS!
* But, again, I sure like to know if that part is going
to happen! Even though, I don’t want him to maybe come back into my
life, course he’s no different then the rest of those. Because has
I’ve always been told, don’t ever think anyone will be remotely interested in
you, course, you’ll Ugly!
As well as waiting really, where this MONEY that she
had also, predicted to happen WILL COME BACK in a BIG LUMP SUM
as well as possibly more later.
Though, shortly after I had that
encounter with that Professional Clairvoyant shall I say well, (and this was
just before I got that job working at a Fashion Shop by the way), as I was
approaching the Kingfisher Centre a fairly large woman had just suddenly
approached me with a biggest smile and said “excuse me by asking you, but do
know anyone with Big Brown Eyes?
Course, I can tell you right now, if you haven't yet, well you sure
will! Course, you have such a lovely
wonderful smile, I can see you meeting someone with deep Brown
Eyes. If not in a few months, you will
But before, I carry on, well let's just say this person
didn't dress or really acted like she was a Gipsy, she was just a woman that
simply stopped me on my way into the shopping centre. And even though she may have wanted me to
have this very small lime Green stone that was more shiny then a small stone
that looked plainly green, if you know what I mean!!! She wasn't!
Only, as you should know by now, in my so-call Diary that
I've turned into a Book that I've done and dedicated to my beloved Dad, who I
will always love, well this mysterious, tall, dark hair stranger that no sooner
then I saw, leaning against that table with his arms folded looking slightly
down and thought was going to start something off in my so-call crazy life but
how! Well he had the most amazing big Brown
Eyes you would not believe! Which, is
exactly what I'm trying to say about when as well as what this woman had said about me meeting
Someone with the most biggest Brown Eyes.