Wednesday, 5 January 2000

Playing Games - Chapter 4


Chapter 4


Not forgetting, there was even a time while I was working that he had called me in the back for something, well that’s what I had thought, because as I wondered into the back I not only saw Matt sitting down, but sitting down with both of his legs right up onto the other chair, smiling away to me, which, had always got to me!  Because, at first, it did make me feel like he was trying to indicate something else, which I could have been wrong to think of!  But, really, it was the way he was making me truly feel, as I walked into the staff-room seeing him also, with both arms stretched out at the back of his head, like he was relaxing-like, not forgetting, that while he was smiling away, as he did, he really made out, to  me, if you want to sit down, well, sit on my lap because of how he once again, had both of his legs onto the other chair! 

 And secondly, it was really how he had also, made me go all shy at the same time because, I was really starting to blush in front of him!  Which cause of this, had really made it so awkward for me to stick around near to him!  Only, not thinking straight, I just suddenly dashed out from the staff-room before I thought I might have blush, even more so then, I had already.  But no sooner after I dash out from the staff room then I heard Matt starting to laugh a little to himself, which, I felt like I was going to blush a little more then I had ever before! Although, what I mustn’t forget, was while I thought I had, all those feelings for him well at the exact same time, he was beginning to be a little bit horrible to me along with all of the others that had decided to play with my emotions, so I wouldn’t know whether I was coming or going, of how I was now starting to feel around him!  Which, I’ve got to say, was so horrible for really anyone to do to that to someone like myself! 

 Especially, as I was sure that they must have known somehow that I was not being my usual self around them, but now, my old and true self, which was being really shy whenever it came to Matt was around me!  The only thing was, I had no idea of why Matt was being like this towards me and only me,  may I add!  Because, one minute you would see him acting all nice to me making this girl laugh because half of the time he would really act all silly-like.  Then the next well it was like his behaviour had suddenly changed in a big way like someone that I wouldn’t want to be around or even maybe not knowing, them.   

Which most of those times was actually while he was in changed and working along side Liz, as she was known to us but which I thought was entitled to think of a few more names for her, because of how she had always made me felt while she was with Matt!  But there was another reason of why I didn’t really want to be around if I knew Matt was going to be in charged with her, like they sometimes had!  Which, I really never liked about it, because whenever they would work together at times well, they would always reminded me of all those awful bad times that I had of being badly bullied by those nasty bullies from schools those many, many years ago.



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