Wednesday, 5 January 2000

Playing Games - Chapter 4


Chapter 4


                          WHAT IS MATT DOING WITH BOTH HIS LEGS UP?

                                        AND PUTTING BOTH HIS ARMS AT 

                                       THE BACK OF HIS HEAD SMILING?                                                          


 Not forgetting, there was even a time while I was working that Matt called me in the back for something, only after wondering in the back, I not only saw Matt was sitting down in the staff room, but sitting down with both legs right up onto the other chair, smiling away to me, which always got to me in the nicest possible way!  Because at first, this did make me feel like he was trying to indicate something else, which I could have been wrong!  But, by god!  it really did!   

 For it was the way he was simply making me feel all going shy-like while wondering in the staff-room properly seeing both of his arms stretched out, at the back of his head like he was relaxing, while still smiling at me with that mystifying look in his eyes!  But who did made out to yours truly if you want to sit down on my lap?  Because of how he had got both of his legs still on that other chair! 

 And secondly, it was how he had also made this girl go completely shy at the same time because as I was really starting to feel like I going to blush in front of him, which cause of this, had made it so awkward for me to stick around near to him.  Only, as I wasn't thinking straight, suddenly dashed straight out from the staff-room, before I thought I would really blush more so, in front of him.  But no sooner then I did, I heard Matt started to laugh a little to himself, which, I felt like I was really now going to blush!

 But unfortunately for me, what I couldn't forget was no soon then I thought he was making me feeling like this, while I was in with him, as well as, just as I had to dash straight out of the staff-room that his reaction towards me had turn into Mr Hyde, who as you know, from the character, in the novels or films that they were a horrible piece of work, to everyone that would come across them.  Only once again, Matt only acted like this, towards me then he was with the others from work.  

 Maybe, it was those other complete Barstards from work that had decided to play with my emotions so I wouldn’t know whether I was coming or going of how I was now starting to feel around Matt!  Which, I’ve got to say was so, ghastly for anyone to do to someone like myself.  But, Matt didn't help either, which if it won't for my feelings for him, would also, call the guy, a flaming Barstard or you Prick! 

 Especially, as I was sure Matt must have known somehow, that I was not being my usual self around them, but my old and true self, which was being really shy.  The only thing was, I had no idea of why Matt was being like this towards me!  Because, one minute, Matt would act all nice, by making this girl laugh, by acting all silly-like, then, the next, his behaviour would suddenly change, like someone that no one would really want to know.  As, that's how ghastly he was, when this un-sudden behaviour had appeared!   

 Which, most of those times was actually while he was in changed and working along side with that bloody, snobby-bitch aka big Liz, as she was known to me, but which I thought was entitled to a few more names, because of how she had always made me feel, while hanging around Matt!  Though, there was another good reason of why I didn’t really want to be around Matt, if I knew Matt was going to be in charge with that oh so pozy, but lanky, hideous, gruesome, aka big Liz!  And that was, because whenever they would work together well they would always reminded me of all those awful bad times that I had of being badly bullied by those nasty bullies from schools those many, many years ago!



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